For you

Poem 26: Pretend

I pretend I am not hurt.

As you run out the door crying.

The truth is that inside im dying.

But you, you had your chance.

Which is why I obliged when he asked me to dance.

I pretend to smile. :)

But then I see you and my heart becomes a meer pile.

He may be the sun, but you are the moon.

Every time I see you I try not to swoon

I pretend I don't remember your arms around me.

I pretend I haven't known you since I was about three.

I pretend dear God, I pretend we were never in love.

But then I see your face and all that I knew is shoved.

Shoved into the back of my mind.

I breath. You don't love him *but I do* You can't trust him. *but he's kind*

I pretend. Throughout our entire encounter that I don't care.

But when I go home I run my fingers through my hair.

And I remember when you once did that.

I remember our first kiss behind your hat.

But nonetheless, I pretend.

God, I just want this to end.

This game of "who can pretend the best".

As I'm the girl bawling in my dress.

And you're just the boy who pretends he's not depressed.

I hope the last time I ever have to pretend is when I tell him I don't love you anymore.

As if loving you became a chore.

When in fact, loving you is the best thing I ever did.

She would've been the second best thing; our kid.

Half of you, half of me.

But yet I'm the one who said sorry.

So tonight as I pray for sleep, I pretend.

I pretend that you had grown the hell up and our story never had an end.

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