You were the Jackson Avery to my April Kepner.
You were my best friend, and then my first everything.
But what I never realized is that I would end up with a Matthew Taylor.
The guy I had always dreamed of before I met you.
The guy who was supposed to be the One.
The guy who was supposed to be my first kiss at the altar.
But a part of me will always ship Japril.
A part of me will always remember our "Samuel" like moments.
When all I wanted was to scream and to be held.
And all you wanted to do was run.
It was like I finally realized how wrong everything was when I met my Matthew.
And I hope some day you meet your Maggie (?)
A part of me still yearns for the ending that Japril never had.
Harriet growing up with her biological mom and dad.
But that's not how their story went, and I'm not yet sure how ours will go.
Sometimes I think we will have our moment when I'm standing at the altar with my Matthew.
I can see you standing up when they say speak now.
I can see the tears running down my cheek and the furrow on the groom's brow.
Is that how it'll go?
You and I too afraid to talk until I'm about to say 'I do'.
Because at one time all I wanted was to say 'I do' with you.
But I'm off to see my Matthew, the guy I was always supposed to be with.
And yet a part of me longs for my Jackson.
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A/N
Alright, so if you dont watch Grey's Anatomy this will have been super confusing. But I was just cleaning my room and struck by the realization of how similar my story is to April's. This is going to seem stupid when I read back over it. But let me know what you think.
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Non-FictionA collection of poems I wrote during and after my first relationship. I spent 5+ years working on this, and I apologize for any spelling/grammatical errors, but I wanted to leave everything as it was originally written.
