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never doubt my love for you

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ida's pov

since i had a forty five minute lunch break before my last two classes of the school day, i decided to spend it in the library studying for an important upcoming final. i was confident that i knew the material, but one last check never hurt anyone.

i was flipping through my biology book, looking for the page that i needed, when i heard the door open and closed quietly. figuring it was just someone needing either a book, or a place to study, i paid no attention.

but when someone who asuumeingly only stood a few feet away from me cleared their throat, i looked up. immediately, i was looking into an all too familiar pair of brown eyes that belonged to my boyfriend of just two weeks, shawn.

roughly three months ago, he expressed his liking for me. at first, i thought it a joke amongst him and his friends. considering we are at total opposite ends of the social radar, him liking me was something i never pictured possible. afterwards, we went on a few dates and not to long ago, he asked me to be his girlfriend.

today though, i had been avoiding him.

last night, my friends all told me that he was just a player out to hurt me to get 'school cred' from his friends and other peers.

at first, i thought the idea in general was crazy.

but then it made sense.

he could have anyone in this whole school, but he chose me. a shy girl who spends her free time avoiding all things popular people do and watching netflix. all night, i wondered if that was actually his intention. to make me love him then break my heart. i didn't want to confirm that, i didn't want them to be true, so i purposely avoided him.

obviously someone told him where i was, and he found me.

"hey babe, you told me you were sick and weren't going to come to school," he said, sitting down in a chair beside mine.

"o-oh," i almost choke on my spit, "uhm, yeah, i came in because i was feeling better."

he furrowed his brows, "i was talking to brain and he told me he seen you this morning before first block. are you avoiding me? did i do something?"

"no!" i said, a bit to loudly considering i got shushed by the librarian, "it's me, really, not you."

"tell me whats bothering you," shawn said, "please. i'm not forcing you, but you look stressed."

i put my book on the table in front of me and sighed, "last night, my friends were over and we were studying together for a final that we have."

"okay," shawn said unsurely.

"they started asking me about you and i guess us, and they got skeptical fast," i said.

"skeptical? about what?" shawn asked.

"y-you," i admitted shamefully, my chin lowering.

"me?" shawn questioned, "why would they get skeptical about me?"

"they told me that to you, your intention is to hurt me once i get attached to you. you could have chosen anybody in this whole school, but you chose me. i don't know, they think that whatever is going on between us is just a game," i said quietly, studying his face as i spoke, "we are nowhere near each other on a social spectrum, and every other girl is so much prettier-"

"don't finish that sentence," he shook his head, "do you believe them? your friends?"

"i don't want to believe them," i shook my head.

"listen," he took my hand in his and studied it as if it was fascinating, "my intention isn't to hurt you. i'm not some player. i never was, and i never will be. i genuinely like you, and i see a future for us. regardless of who i could have chose, you are the only person i have eyes for. i don't want you to ever think i will hurt you. okay?"

his words made my heart clench, and i bit my bottom lip to prevent smiling like an idiot.

"okay," i nodded shyly.

he looked at me unsurely, "somethings still wrong."

he could see right through me, and genuinely felt concerned. to top off the fact that he looked cute today - and lets be honest here, everyday- he was good to me. i suddenly felt stupid for ever considering what my friends said to be true.

"i sometimes look at your other friends that are girls, and feel insecure because they are so much prettier," i said, "i don't know, sometimes i wonder why you liked me and not them?"

shawn pressed his lips to the back of my hand softly, "i picked you not because of your looks, even though that is a huge bonus. i picked you because you are sweet, and kind to everyone. you care about me just as much as i do about you. your personality is what caught my attention, one that no other girls can compare to."

i blushed hard, and shawn noticed.

the bell rang, which caused me to jump at the sudden noise.

chuckling, shawn swiftly pulled his bag over his shoulder and stood up. he hesitated, "never doubt my love for you."

"i'm sorry," i looked at my lap again, feeling beyond terrible.

i felt his fingers tilt my chin up before i locked eyes with him, "don't apologize."

i nodded slowly, watching as he ducked down and kissed me gently. his lips were soft and tasted of coffee, causing a feeling of giddiness to rush through me. i kissed him back before he pulled away, a smile playing on his lips, "if you are still worried about someone else replacing you, everyone passing the library window, including your three goggly-eyed friends, just seen me kiss you. so now, they know that i belong to you and only you."

i spun around in my chair and locked eyes with my friends, claire, elizabeth, and sarah, watching them duck out of view to avoid being caught eavesdropping.

i nodded, "walk me home after school?"

"of course," shawn said, "see you later, hun."

i watched as he left the library, any insecurities about our relationship fading away.

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