Forever <R5/Lynch fan fic>

Chapter 18

{KATIE P.O.V}

It's been a whole week since the Lynch's and Ratliff left. It's been really hard and I've cried every night since they left. I guess I had stronger feelings for Ross then I thought and I was closer to the rest of them to because they're all I have been able to think about. R5 will forget about me whether they say so or not, I'm ordinary. My phone beeps signaling that I have received a text message. A part of me wishes it was one of them but the other part knows that if it is then I will break down in tears. They have been texting me sometimes they even try to call. I'll answer here and there but it is to hard for me to hold a solid conversation with any of them. I look at my messages and notice that it wasn't them. It was my best friend, Sierra.

From: Big Botty Girl

"What's up, girlie? I miss you. We are suppose to cover a song tomorrow so be at my house around 1:00"

Sierra sings with me. Our voices sound really great together. Her voice sounds great independently, and people tell me the same thing.

 I reply with a simple "I'll see you then." I need to talk to her any way. It feels like she doesn't know about anything that has been happening with me. Usually, in a time of hurt, she is the first one I run to so I can talk about it. There's just something about this kind of hurt that I can't figure out. I didn't cry tonight because I promised myself that I would be stronger for myself and even for them.

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*The Next Morning*

I didn't wear anything extravagant to Sierra's house. She's use to it and I know that she will be wearing something similar. I'm wearing blue jean shorts and my R5 tank-top. Not the same one I wore to the concert. This one is white and has a pink R5 symbol in the shape of a heart beat. It's risky wearing this in my emotional state but this is the first step in moving forward. When I get there, Sierra catch up on everything before we start rehearsing. I told her everything from the day of the concert to the day they left and then some. She sat there and listened until I was completely finished like she usually does.

"Wow, girl. I cant believe it, you and Ross? I always thought it would be Riker or some shit like that. " she says. It doesn't matter what the situation I can count on Sierra to cheer me up, and it doesn't take much of an effort for her to. That's one of the many reasons we are such close friends because I can go to her for anything, and she knows she can do the same.

I finally answer, "No, it was Ross."

"Was?" She questioned.

"Were you not listening Se? He's gone. He left and he won't remember me. It doesn't matter if he does remember me because its a one in million chance I will ever see him again. Then, he'll go and find a famous girlfriend and that'll be the end of that. " I already know I sound upset because the realization is sinking in.

"Oh, you dont know that. "

"I kind of do." I reply quickly. I want to change the subject so I do. "but anyway what song are we going to cover?"

"If I Can't Be With You. " She mumbles.

"Seriously?" I groan.

"It was the next on the list but we can change the song." She tries to make me feel better. Her and I have made a list of songs we will cover in order so we can practice them ahead of time, I would feel bad about changing it.

"No, it's fine." She nods in reply and we start to sing the song that I love so much. We record it about three times until it finally comes out in a way that meets our standards. We edit it certain parts before we post it on our YouTube channel. We did really good, sang really well and Sierra said I had a lot of great emotion behind my voice, for obvious reasons.

"Alright, well I have to head home. " I say once the video has completely uploaded. I checked the time and it was close to 6:00, my mom will be preparing dinner.

"Ok. I'll see you later. Text me if you need me." I nod and then leave her house. I drive home and was right about my mom making dinner. Once I finished with my dinner, I helped with the dishes then went to my room. I turned on the TV to Disney and Austin & Ally was on, it made my heart sink seeing Ross. "I miss you Ross Lynch." I mumble just as I fall asleep.