sometimes, when I panic too bad, my thoughts go running back to you
almost always, these thoughts are haunting me
your fingertips running down my spine, telling me it'll be okay
kissing all my fears away and holding me until I stop shaking
always there with an encouraging word.
and then I remember the truth,
those drunk nights and your knuckles bloody
tears pouring down my face and broken glass and voices so loud they echo
all the times you said you'd change but you didn't.
all the times I believed and curled back up with you in your bed
comforted by your warmth and all the lies.
sometimes, on my bad days
I remember you were always a call away
and you talked me through it until I could laugh again
no matter what I did, you never left me alone.
you clung to me like a small child and
right now, all I wanna do is call you.
I want to tell you everything.
that it hurts and you were right
loneliness is the human condition
no one will ever fill the space
we are born alone and we die alone.
that I can't breathe at night and I still have that rose you bought me years ago
that I still wear your ring and cut my teeth on vodka bottles
that your sister still makes me cry because she looks like you and I still hope to hear your voice interrupting us while she and I are on the phone
and then I remember the truth
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Distant Thoughts
Poetryhow to: get over your first love write a book about your experience with heartbreak -- 1. "You are like the wind Sometimes here, sometimes not Maybe I ought To have known that now Is the time you aren't" 2. "I'm running out of things to say Please...
