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11

Robyn's POV

Hopping on the bed with only a t shirt on and stacked some of the pillows up behind me.

I lay back and unplug my charger from my phone to call Chris back, but the call wait to voicemail meaning he's already in a call so I click the end button.

I frowned a bit to myself remembering he is Chris Brown. And I'm not even his girl.

Scrolling through Instagram my phone vibrated, Chris is calling back on FaceTime though.

"Yes?" I answered, looking at the tv screen searching for something to watch.

"Sorry bout that, someone called."

I shrugged and mumbled an "it's cool"

"Okay so look at me now"

"Stop trying to promote your music" I rolled my eyes jokingly and he laughed at my comment.

"Shut up, I mean look at me, Rihanna, as in now"

I looked at him then turned my phone to the tv again and he sucked his teeth. I laughed and gave him my now full attention.

"Finally. Now as I was saying....what are you up to?"

"Shit. Talking to you. How long are you staying in Miami?"

"I'm actually leaving soon I have to check the date it's this week though. You?"

"Next weekend. I have so much work to do I'm so tired." I said sighing loudly, closing my eyes.

"You wanna go to sleep now? You c-"

"No I mean in general. I'm physically and mentally tired of everything revolving around work."

"Then listen to me and get some rest. You can't think about that shit too much, just think about why you do what you do. And if you reeeeally think it's takin a toll on you then I suggest taking a break."

"Breaks don't mean shit when I'm stressed 24/7 that just means I'm upset AND with nothing to do." I let out another sigh. "But yeah I think Ima get some rest I'll uhm call you tomorrow so we can send in the song and stuff."

"Alright cool goodnight baby."

I felt myself heat up. "Night, Chris" I said before hanging up.

Waking up at 11:30, this is the longest I've slept in a while, meaning months. Everything in my schedule in the past 6 months has be strictly work related.  I don't have time to slack off.

Its not that I can't sleep, there's just not enough time in a day for over 4-6 hours of it.

I sat up and moved the comforter off of my now cold body, my phone rang earning a sigh from me.

Mom ☀️️

"Good morning mama"

"Good morning baby how are you?"

"Fine I just got up I was goi-"

"Just got up from what? Bed?"

"Uhm yea I guess I over sle-"

"It's twenty minutes to 12, you think you don't have anything to do today?"

"I don't work till 3?"

At the age of 26, I'd like to think I'm a grown ass woman.

"You can always start early. You know this. The faster you do-"

"The faster you do it, the faster you get It over with, I know. Which is why I'm going to jump in the shower and call you later alright? Love you mama."

"Love you too Rob." She sighed over the phone.

I know she just wants me to do well but shit! I've already made it! I'm fucking Rihanna.

It's just headache after headache after headache. I know it's from the stress.

I got off of tour around 8 months ago. Left and right there's everyone on my ass about staying in the studio so I don't get lazy on my shit.

I don't know if it's their interest of me being consistently on top, or them benefitting fame wise and money wise.

Everybody wants to be on the Rihanna train but when it comes to Robyn they don't give a fuck. Separating the two as Rihanna being the big face of everything music, success, and wealth. Robyn being me. My health, my own wants, my happiness.

I'm just extremely tired.

I don't even know if I'm working this hard for myself anymore. Who am I doing it for? Who am I so damn unhappy for? If I'm not doing it for myself then why do it at all. I'm not saying that I want to stop now, I just need a break.

Every state I go, I'm still working. I'm not even having fun in Miami! I'm not enjoying my time in LA! I don't feel at home when I'm in my literal home in New York! And going back to my family's house in Barbados is just as draining. They all want Rihanna Rihanna Rihanna.

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A little in sight on Robyn's situation, are you guys feeling it or....?

Also make sure to add BeFoUr to your libraries.......I'm pretty sure you all know the connection lol.