Musically Problematic

Chapter 47: 1st Day of Christmas

We continue eating in the quiet restaurant while waiting for the other boys to arrive to take Michael back home with them.

Sophie's POV:

I see the automatic doors slide open and see Ashton and Calum walk in looking around. Calum's eyes meet mine so I wave at him. I remember how he treated me in high school but that was partly my fault too so I pretend it never happened. They make their way over to us slowly.

C: "Hey Sophie...long time no see. And you Michael, are not to scare us like that again."

M: "Sorry guys, I just felt like I didn't have any other choices."

S: "There will always be another option Michael."

A: "She's right, and we are always gonna be here for you, Michael, on tour and off. Talk to us about how you feel sometimes, we can't help you if we don't know that anything is wrong."

M: "I know...thanks guys. Can we just go home? I don't wanna talk about anything right now."

C: "Let's get some food for the road, Ash, then we can head off?"

Ash nods and they both head over to the counter to get their food. Michael stands up and throws our rubbish in the bin before coming back over to me. I stand up and he gives me the slightest smile, but it makes me so happy.

"Have a good night, Sophie. I'm gonna need some time to get over everything that's happened but I hope you were serious about spending Christmas together..."

"Of course, it's not like I'd spend it with my family..."

"I wanna ask why but I don't think I can handle that story right now, maybe after I've started getting help."

"Don't worry about it, it's not an interesting story anyway. Deal with your problems first. I'm over mine...the only problems I've got on my mind is yours."

"One day I'll be ready to help you the way you've helped me, again."

"You've done your share of helping me, in high school. Don't worry about me, worry about helping yourself."

C: "Ready to go, Mikey?"

He nods at his friends and I walk out with them they wave at me as we walk our separate ways to our cars. Ash takes Michael's keys and makes him get into the passenger seat of Calum's car. Just as I'm about to get in my car I hear someone call my name. I look around and see Calum walking towards me, I take a deep breath preparing myself for whatever rude shit he has to say to me now. I thought we could get past this after school ended but he obviously has other plans. I see him standing in front of me and hear him take a deep breath himself.

"I need to apologise for all the rude things I said and did to you back in high school, I don't want to spend anymore time regretting it. I want to move past it, for Michael's sake more than anything."

"I want that too, it was partly my fault. I told you I didn't like Mike all that time that, you asked me out...I bailed and went to Mike's place. In my defence I was grounded and none of you guys would help sneak me out except for Mike. If it was jealously...well that's fine...but you still had no right to do that to me. But you're right, we should just move on and forget it never happened? Only problem is...I can't do that. Sorry Calum."

"That's how you want it? Here's what I really came over here to tell you then. Know that I'll always take Michael's side...bros before hoes...meaning he'll take mine over yours too. He spent his last years in high school helping you and this is how you repay him? I don't even know exactly what you did but he's broken and you will pay for that. And that won't be from me, you'll do that to yourself with your guilty conscience. Anyway I have to go...good luck forgiving yourself for what you did to him. He will never be the same Michael he used to be...because of you."

With that he walks back over to his car and Michael. I get in my own car and drive back to my own apartment. I walk into my house and clean up my kitchen from my attempt at eating dinner before I left earlier. I shower and go to bed, as I'm lying in my bed I get a message.

From Mikey❤️:
Hey, we're back home
I want to try something with you, will you do it?

I message him back:
What did you want to try?

From Mikey❤️:
I was thinking for the 12 days of Christmas, we don't see each other in person or call, just text and by doing that each day, we tell each other something each to repair the cracks in our relationship. So when we meet up on Christmas Day things are relatively sorted out between us. What do you think?

I read through his message a few times to fully understand what he was asking me to do before replying with:
Sure, let's do it. Today's the 1st day of Christmas so we can start with 1 thing right now.

From Mikey❤️:
Ok then, I want to start at the start of our downfall. When I moved to London did you honestly think I meant it when I said I never wanted to see you again?

I read his message, the answer is obvious but I guess he wants to hear it from me. Unless he thinks I didn't think that did he mean it, but if your boyfriend tells you he wants to start anew without links to his past and tells you not to contact him again, what else are you supposed to think? I message him back saying the truth he needs to hear:
What else was I supposed to think, my boyfriend said he wants to start anew and not to contact him again, was I supposed to see it as a joke?

From Mikey❤️:
You're right, that was a bad thing to say to you. At the time I guess I thought it was what I needed. It seemed like the best idea, I thought it would be more painful for us to continue talking/dating. Your turn, tell me something you want to clear up.

No wait, you thought that it would hurt less to just forget about each other. pretend we weren't ever friends more than friends. You thought that after we'd gone all the way you'd just break up with me so you didn't have to deal with the distance. I feel like you decided you weren't going to London taken or a Virgin so you used me for both of those things. In short, you broke my heart that night, you took me right back to where I started. I feel like all you ever want/ed from me was the pleasure my body could give you. You weren't the only one that used me for that and we both know it, I hated you as much as my dad for that.

From Mikey❤️:
I never used you for sex, pleasure, anything. After feeling what you could do to me, I knew I couldn't go to London thinking I had a chance for that to happen again. I knew I'd think about it every time we talked so it was easier if we just didn't talk. I knew what your dad did to you, so I would never use you for something like that, I hated that he thought he could do that to someone...anyone...much less his own daughter.

I hope that's true, anyway I'm going to sleep now. I can't deal with anything else from this topic right now. Good night Michael

I send my last text of the night off and put my phone on Do Not Disturb so I can sleep and get all of today's events out of my head for a while.