She nods her head towards someone but I don't follow her gaze. I keep my view fixed on the seemingly interesting ground. I hear the girl get up from beside me and walk off.
Sophie's POV:
I'm driving around when it finally hits me. Not too long ago there was a suicide from The Gap. I drive directly there to save Michael before it's too late. I park and jump out of my car jogging up the path to hopefully find Michael. I see him...and a girl, I stop quickly a fair distance away not wanting to startle them. I have to admit jealousy bubbles up inside me; seeing him with another girl makes me feel sick. But if she's the reason why Mikey is still here with us then I have to thank her. She looks up at me and smiles, she nods towards me but Michael doesn't even look up. I shouldn't expect him to, I want to talk to him but I'm scared I'll push him right back over the edge. I don't know why I agreed to coming here to find him, what am I gonna say that will be of any help. I see the girl stand up and walk towards me.
"Hey, you're Sophie right? Michael's ex from high school..."
"Uh...yeah. It's weird knowing that people like you actually know who I am. Thanks for helping him out, if it wasn't for a fan like you coming up to him, he probably would have jumped by now. So thank you so much, he still means so much to me."
"He said this is all your fault...Please don't break him on us, he's done so much for so many people like me. He saved my life."
"He saved my life too. I don't know if you know my full story of my teen years when Mike and I met but he definitely saved me back then. I wouldn't want anything bad to happen to him...I think I love him."
"Lots of people do, but once bitten, twice shy. I don't know if you should be here, I'd let him wait for the boys. They'll help him a hell of a lot more than you ever can."
I just nod and she turns and walks away, she turns back to check if I was talking to him. Once she's out of sight I walk a little closer to Michael kneeling down.
"Michael...Don't think that I'd ever wish you weren't here, you mean so much to so many people, there are so many other options that aren't suicide. Suicide is irreversible, I hated the self-harm but this is a totally different level of that. I just wish you'd get help...so you can recover and stop hurting yourself. Anyway...The boys are on their way...I'll go and let you wait for them. I...never mind."
I look out at the setting sun and pink sky reflecting off the usually pristine crystal blue waves. I nod to myself and turn around to leave him in peace.
"Sophie...please don't go. I need someone here with me right now. I know you're the one I'm angry at but...I'm not angry with you per say...I'm just disappointed in your choices. Will you stay with me? At least till the boys arrive."
"If you're sure you want me to. I just want you to be ok."
"I will be..."
I can see he's about to say he loves me so I cut him off.
"Summer comes, winter fades
Here we are just the same
Don't need pressure, don't need change
Let's not give the game away
There used to be an empty space
A photograph without a face
But with your presence, and your grace
Everything falls into place
Just please don't say you love me
'Cause I might not say it back
Doesn't mean my heart stops skipping when you look at me like that
There's no need to worry when you see just where we're at
Just please don't say you love me
'Cause I might not say it back
Heavy words are hard to take
Under pressure precious things can break
And how we feel is hard to fake
So let's not give the game away
Just please don't say you love me
'Cause I might not say it back
Doesn't mean my heart stops skipping when you look at me like that
There's no need to worry when you see just where we're at
Just please don't say you love me
'Cause I might not say it back
And fools rush in
And I've been the fool before
This time I'm gonna slow it down
'Cause I think this could be more
The thing I'm looking for."
"I've missed hearing that beautiful voice, that song has some powerful lyrics too. Let's do exactly what it says...take things a little slower. We've always rushed things in our relationship, lets slow down this time and make it work. I don't want to lose you again."
"Me either..."
I walk back over to him and sit down leaning my back on the fencing.
"This doesn't mean I forgive you for what you've done, it only means I'm gonna work towards accepting your choices. Hey, maybe one day if we work this out we can actually have a baby together...maybe more than one?"
"Maybe...Lets just keep it low key and slow. No rushing into things this time...Remember. We shouldn't be spending our twelve days of Christmas with you thinking of jumping off a cliff. Let's work this out and have a great Christmas and New Years together."
"I'm not really in a Christmassy mood..."
"Nor have I been for the past month, but it's not too late to change that Mikey. We have a little over a week left till Christmas morning. Let's spend Christmas together, even if there's no presents...the only presence I need is yours."
"Now there's my cheesy girl."
"Come on, Clifford. Let's go somewhere that isn't here. Even if we just get some food and then you can go back to Riverstone with the boys."
"Thats probably a good idea, let's go eat. Tell the boys where we're going, so they know where to meet us."
"Where are we going? Both of our cars are here..."
"We'll take your car coz I don't really wanna drive and then I'll get one of the boys to drive back to get my car after. Unless you really just wanna meet me there?"
"Meet you where, Clifford?"
"Macca's obviously."
"You're such a dork. I'll see you there...Wait...Which Macca's? There's so many around here."
"Just follow me."
We both get into our cars and he takes off before me so I can follow him. We park at a Macca's not too far from The Gap. I follow him into the building and we order our meals separately. While eating our meals, I ask a question that's been eating me alive.
"So what does this make us now? Are we still dating? Are we just friends? What are we?"
"I want to say dating...just very low key. Not like friends with benefits...but...like friends with benefits. Except the benefits won't be sex, instead they're holding hands, longs chats, occasional low key dates like this and maybe, cuddling?"
"Well I like the sound of that. One other thing..."
"Yeah?"
"After New Years can you please start getting help for your depression and anxiety, no one can help you like a professional can."
"I think it's time...I'll see someone after New Years...I promise."
We continue eating in the quiet restaurant while waiting for the other boys to arrive to take Michael back home with them.
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Musically Problematic
FanficShe's just a brainiac teenage girl flying through high school. He's just a teenage boy who couldn't care less about grades...but loves to make music. She secludes herself from most people for a good reason, the fear of getting hurt, she knows plent...
