Musically Problematic

Chapter 57: Can't Handle Another Goodbye

When all the chores are done we finally get to go back to cuddling on the couch, while watching random TV shows.

Author's Note:
Since there's only three chapters left till the third and final part begins, I'm going to be skipping to the day the boys have to leave for their tour. They're headed to Japan to start it.

Sophie's POV:

I wake up really early, well it's more like I can't sleep. I get changed into some comfy clothes for the flight to Japan, that Michael doesn't know I'll be joining him on yet. I had to put my bag in the car last night while he was in the shower so he didn't notice and I had been packing a little bit at a time every time he went out or was occupied and thought I was doing stuff for work. I start to make a cup of coffee for myself when I hear him waking up so I make him a cup too. Just as I finish adding the milk to the cups I feel his presence behind me, as he wraps his arms around my waist and rests his head on my head.

"I'm gonna miss you so much, do I have to go? Can't I just stay here with you?"

"I wish, Mikey. But this is your job and you love it, you'll get to see all your fans again. You can't say you didn't miss them."

"I did, but I'm gonna miss you so much more. I love my fans, but I love you so much more and in a different way."

"Aww...Mikey. I love you too, and I'll miss you heaps. But this is your job, we can Skype whenever you have time."

"But I can't touch you, hug you or kiss you through Skype."

"I know...but it will be okay. Just have some breakfast so I can take you to the airport and catch up with the others. You'll feel better once you see them."

He takes one of the cups and drinks a mouth full before kissing my cheek, whispering.

"I'm gonna miss you so much..."

"I'll miss you too...but everything is gonna be okay."

I make us both some toast, I let him spread his own as he insists on having vegemite and I hate it. Once we both finish our breakfast and brush our teeth, he hugs me tightly again.

"Please come with us...me. I don't think I can survive without you for this long. I'll pay for your ticket...hell I'd pay for everything. Just come with me."

By this stage tears are falling down his cheeks. It breaks my heart to see him like this, but I can imagine the look on his face when I check in my luggage and walk on the plane and sit down beside him. I reach up and wipe his tears and place a kiss on his lips slowly.

"You know things are better this way, what am I supposed to do while you're going to sound check, preparing for the shows, doing the show and then coming back to the bus or motel warn out and exhausted...It's not realistic for me to go with you."

"I'm not exhausted after the shows; I'm buzzed...can you imagine what could come out of that in bed? And I know we haven't actually done that in years, but we're engaged now, I think we can, right?"

"Michael, think with your head and heart instead of your groin, please."

"Fine, I know I have to suck it up and nothing is going to change about this situation. But I just wanna say if we're never gonna have sex again what's the point of being together?"

"I know you're just saying this because you're depressed about leaving me, you don't truly mean that...And even if you do, I refuse to fight with you this close to you leaving for tour. If we don't leave  now you're not gonna have time to check in."

"Whatever, let's go."

He grabs his bags and I open the door to let him through first so I can lock up and meet him down at the car once his stuff is packed in the boot. I watch him pack the car and pull out my phone to call his mum before going downstairs.

"Hey Soph, we just arrived at the airport. If you park the car where we talked about, Daryl will drive it back to your place once you guys are gone so that you don't have to pay on airport parking. And just to make sure we don't say anything to spoil the surprise to him, he doesn't know yet right? Oh and we picked up your bag from your car as discussed and Daryl is off checking it in now."

"No, he's clueless and really upset. I hate seeing him sad like this, but the surprise that he'll get when he finds out the truth is worth it. And thanks so much for helping me with this."

"That's true, we'll see you both soon then. And you're totally welcome, sweetie."

"Yep, bye."

I hang up and go downstairs to see him already in the drivers seat so I go around to the passenger seat and get in. The drive to the airport is silent apart from the music that's quietly playing in the background. Once we get to the airport I tell him where I want him to park, I tell him it's easier for when I leave after he's gone. Once we're parked he gets his stuff out of the boot and looks at me.

"I think it's best if you just leave now, I don't think I can handle saying goodbye again."

"Hey, Hey, it's gonna be alright. It's fine to be upset about this, it proves to me how much you really do love me. And just because I'm not breaking down as well, doesn't mean I don't love you just as much if not more. I just don't like showing off my emotions, you know that by now."

"It's just that I've lost you too many times before, what if the distance is too much and I lose you again? I don't think I can handle that."

"Let's just go in before you're late, we'll deal with the distance and growing apart thing later. But I'm not worried about that; I love you and you love me, so I trust that we will work it out this time."

"I hope you're right."

He wraps his arms around me one last time before we walk into the airport to greet the others.