Musically Problematic

12 Days of Christmas Conversations

Authors' Note:
This isn't really a full on chapter, it's just the conversations they had for their 12 days of Christmas. I had planned to just skip these but the chapter I wrote didn't exactly make sense without knowing what they'd discussed. So that chapter will go up next week instead, I only started writing this late last night so that's why it's later going up than usual. To make up for this chapter being a little late, it's double the size of a regular one. Anyway...Bold text is going to be Michael and normal is going to be Sophie.
So let's get this started...

2nd Day of Christmas:
Day 2 Soph, U ready?
Yep, ask away
Did you date anyone other than Anthony after I left?
No, he was the only one
Ok, that's good news for me then
What about you, did you date anyone after you left me?
Don't u think u would have heard about it if I did?
Yeah, good point. Is that all for tonight because I have heaps of work to do before Christmas and I really need to get started
Yeah, good luck and good night.
Yep.

3rd Day of Christmas:
Hey, I got my question ready.
Ok, shoot
From last night, I asked if you dated anyone after you left, you said no. What about any relations at all? Purely sexual or otherwise...
I mean, I was a teenage boy. Of course I had a few one night stands and stuff.
What do you mean, "and stuff"?
That sounds like a second question we agreed to only 1 per night.
No, Michael I deserve to understand what you mean
Fine, I paid someone to fuck me a couple of times. I was desperate and lonely
Thank you, now you can ask me something if you want
How long after I left did u and Anthony become a thing?
I don't know, about a month maybe. It definitely wasn't immediately though, I missed you tons and it was so hard for me especially since I was trying to move back in with my mum and siblings at the time and nothing felt right. I needed someone to help me through and you weren't there and Anthony had been trying to contact me for a while, even when we were still together, and he managed to find me and so I just settled for him because it was the best I could get at the time
I understand, I'm so sorry about leaving when everything was getting harder for u but u know I didn't really have another choice
I know, but it still hurt
I know, goodnight beautiful
Goodnight Mike

4th Day of Christmas:
I'm just gonna get straight to the question tonight because I'm really tired. Honestly, how happy did u feel with Anthony?
I already told you, he was controlling, demanding and violent with me. But he wasn't always, I mean when we first met up again he was really sweet and acted like he really cared and obviously won me over. And after that when he turned back into himself, I just didn't want to be alone so I just stayed with him. I couldn't bare being completely alone again.
Oh I'm sorry. I still can't believe u chose to stay and get abused rather than being alone or getting help
You know me, I was never one to stand up against anything really. Especially with my past experiences with abuse, it's something I just accepted, I deserved. But I'm done believing that! I want to be respected and treated right by someone for once in my life! Will you please promise that if we choose to stay together, that you'll respect me and actually treat me right. Like you used to in High school..?
Of course, baby. I will always try my hardest to make sure u feel special, coz u really r!
Please stick to that, I need to be with someone who will treat me right, or else I think I'm ready to wait and be on my own for a while if I need to wait for someone else
I will treat u right baby and if I don't I want u to make sure I apologise and make it up to u
Don't worry, I will.

5th Day of Christmas:
Day 5, right? tomorrow we'll be halfway through. So the question of the day from me is: How long have you been depressed and having suicidal thoughts? Like when did it start?
They started not long after I moved to London I missed u. I knew I screwed up my chances with u and I couldn't help but blame myself for everything that ever went wrong between us. I missed u so much and I just wanted u to comfort me whenever I was homesick but I figured u wouldn't want to talk to me after how I left and what I'd said
It's surprising hearing how much we both missed and needed each other but we're both too scared and stubborn to call or even text
It really is
Your turn, babe. Ask me something
Since u brought up suicide I wanna talk about ur problems. Did u start self-harming again, at all, after I left?
No, it didn't seem worth it. Plus I had Anthony to do that for me
I hate how everything always leads back to Anthony and how much of a dickhead he is
Trust me, so do I