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45 - If things were different ...

   Chapter 45

              Darnell

It had been 3 days since everything happened. Cass was still on life support. The doctors said that if she's not awake by the end of the week then they'd have to turn it off. I couldn't be asked to talk to anyone, obviously apart from Cashel. Family members and friends were phoning me and asking me all these questions to the point I just turned off my phone. The mad thing was that today was Cassie's birthday, and here she was lying on a hospital bed on the verge of death. Cashel went all out with presents and cards from the both of us and layed them around her so she saw it when she woke up. I was in her room sitting next to her bed when Cashel walked in with more stuff.

"You good?" He asked me

"Yea, im bless"

"Any news?" He asked

I shook my head. "Same thing"

Cassie's grandma suddenly popped into my head. She's probably wondering where Cass is. I have to let her know..

"Ay I beg you go into the top drawer next to her bed. Her phone should be in there" I said to Cashel

He handed me her phone and I switched it on. She had over 30 missed calls from her Grandma, and over 20 from some guy Dwayne. O..k ..I text her grandma explaining everything that had happened and what hospital we were at. After replying to other non important messages I put her phone on the table beside me. I sighed and looked at her. She looked the exact same as she did days ago. No improvement no nothing. I missed her like mad. I missed her smile and her laugh, her voice and her lips. I weren't the same. Not until I knew she was safe and in my arms. I felt so empty and lost. 

My thoughts were interrupted by the door. We looked to the door and saw Elizabeth walk through. I kissed my teeth and turned back around. She came closer.

"H-How is she?" She asked after a while

"Well you would have known if you were here 3 days ago" Cashel said

Well. He took the words right out of my mouth..

"I know I'm sorry bu- ..I- I erm .."

"You what?" I said

She kept quiet. 

"Exactly. You have no excuse. Cassie is your bestfriend. Wouldn't she be your number 1 priority?" I continued.

"Yeah okay but you're forgetting I lost my COUSIN as well!" She shouted

"Don't fxcking shout at me you bxtch. YOU'RE forgetting that it was the same PRICK who put us all here in the first place. Now if you're going to complain and moan about him then get the fxck out." I said

She looked shocked and had tears rolling down her face. She walked out slamming the door in the process. Well she tried to. Cashel kissed his teeth and carried on pinging. I unlocked my phone and replied to some messages. Most of them were the same ..'Get well soon' 'Hold tight' etc.

"Smirkz, a couple of mandem are coming down later. To see how you are and Cass." Cashel said

"Ite" I said not really bothered. This girl just needs to wake up.

*

 Hours later, Cassie's grandma and cousins came through the door. I couldn't even turn properly because my belly was bunning me. She looked like she had been crying and so did Cassie's younger cousin Demi. They all looked grown tbh, even Demi's twin Dylan. They ran to her bedside and looked at her. Her grandma started crying again. Cassie's older cousin just looked angry. I don't even remember his name. He looked at me and Cashel.

"What happened?" He said calmly

"She- ..We got shot." I said

"By who?" He asked

"Her ex. One yute Damien" I said

"And where is the prick?"

"Dead." I said

The females gasped and he nodded.

"So what you guys couldn't contact us quicker?" He said getting angry

"Dywane calm down. You just heard the boy say he got shot what's wrong with you?" Her grandma said

He kissed his teeth and sat down. Ohh yeah that's his name.. Dwayne. That explains why he kept calling her. Duur! I watched as Demi went to put more cards and presents on her table.

"So.. what have the doctors said?" Her grandma asked me

"She's on life support until the end of the week... if she doesn't wake up by then ..then.."

I didn't even wanna say it. They already knew. She carried on crying. Dwayne had his head in his hands whilst Demi comforted her Grandma. Dylan just stood looking at Cassie. I didn't even realise Cashel had left the room until he came back in and sat down. There was a knock on the door before my doctor walked in. 

"Sir, we need to take more tests and see how you're doing" He said

I nodded and followed him out..

"It's her birthday, she doesn't deserve to be here" I heard her grandma say 

*

Hours later I was back in my hospital bed in pain. Most of my mandem was in the room but I wasn't in the mood to conversate. Even though the banter was still hilarious all I was thinking about was Cassie. I just wish everything was different. I wish I could have persuaded her not to go out with Damien in the first place. I should have cut him off from the minute he came back. He went to prison because he was a mad person. Literally. In terms of business he was amazing..anything we needed done he done it. He'd threaten people, torture people, kill people everything. He was a violent person but never to women. Well ..thats what we THOUGHT. I can't even remember why he went pen but it was for something mad.. and even before that I had a bad feeling about him. This is why I just let Cassie deal with him. So she would put up with his business and him always making excuses as to why they can't meet up or some bull like that. I should have just made her mine from the beginning. I was a fool not to. I liked so many girls I didn't know what love was. I was blind to see that I was in love with my bestfriend. And now it's probably too late to tell her.

The doctor came in and told them that visiting hours were over. I thanked God inside. I spudded each other them including Cashel. Soon after it was nice and quiet. I was sooo tired but I couldn't sleep knowing that my girl was in the room beside me struggling. I just wish things were different ...