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46 - Love was blind

   Chapter 46

   Darnell

I woke up feeling much better. The pain had reduced. I sat up in my hospital bed yawning. I looked at the time and it was nearly 12 in the afternoon. Mate, I must have been hella tired. I slowly got out of bed and limped to the bathroom to freshen up. I brushed my teeth and had a quick shower and then went back to my bed. Cashel walked in with some breakfast for me. Yeaaah booy! I spudded him and grabbed it out of his hand. I started tucking in not realising how quiet he was.

"Wagwan? Why you so quiet?" I asked him with my mouth full

I looked up at him properly for the first time today. He looked different. His eyes were red- ..like he was stressed? And or had he been crying...

He looked at me for what seemed like ages! Before he opened his mouth..

"She's gone.."

That's all I heard. I didn't want to believe it. Naa lool. Maybe I heard wrong.

"Lool pardon?" I asked 

"She's gone. She's dead fam. Cassie's dead."

I dropped my food. I felt sick. I couldn't even hold the tears. They came running down. I wiped them away as fast as I could. My breathing began to increase. I don't know if I was angry ..or ..? I actually didn't know what I was feeling. I looked up. No Lord. No ..He's lying. Please tell me he's lying. Please tell me that she's still there in her bed alive ..or better yet she'll walk through this door ANY minute now. I refused to believe..

"Don't chat shxt" I said getting up

"I'm not man. Why the fxck would I lie about something like that?" He said

"Noo Noo Noo fxck off Noo!" I said running out

I ran through the corridor and to her room. I ran in and her grandma was on the floor crying. Dwayne punched the wall and ran out. Dylan ran after him and Demi cried her eyes out. The bed was empty.

"Where the fxck is Cassie?" I said through my gritted teeth

"T-They ..They just took her out now" Demi said barling.. "They've taken her into a special room-"

That was all I heard and I was out the door. I ran to the nearest doctor I could find. Luckily it was my doctor. I couldn't see because my vision was blurry and filled with tears.

"Listen Doc, Cassie Jones? Where is she? I need to know"

" ..Darnell ..I'm afraid we couldn't hold her any longer. She died before we could switch off the life support. Her body was too weak to continue functioning.."

"Nooo fxck! Where is she? Please just let me see her"

He sighed and took me into a room. We walked through bare doors. I wiped my face with my hands before walking in. We walked in and he uncovered her face. I looked away. It didn't feel real at all. I pinched myself to make sure I was dreaming.. I touched her cold cold face.. My baby was gone. All I ever had was gone. The love of my life ..is gone...

I watched as he covered her again. I shook my head..

"Noo ..No .." I kept repeating this over and over again.

I left the room and walked through the hospital. I didn't know where I was going. I was finding it so hard to get it into my head. She's actually gone? Just like that? Disappeared? 

"Darnell! DARNELL!" Her grandma called after me

I stopped to look at her and wiped my face.

"Oh darling." She said crying

She sat me down and hugged me.

"What happened?" I asked after a couple minutes of silence

"Well, she woke up. But she was still very weak. And we were talking to her, showing her her cards and presents and stuff ..and then like half an hour later she just-" She started crying again

"W-what? Why did noone tell me she woke up?" I said quite annoyed

"You were asleep. We didn't want to wake you! And we didn't think.. she'd uno"

I sighed and put my head in my hands.

"She loved you Darnell" She said

"Mhm" I said

"No, Im serious. We had a conversation before she went. Just me and her. She said- ..She said she loved you. So so much. She mentioned all her favourite memories with you, she mentioned all the times you would look after her especially after what happened with her mum ..and Kev"

Argh. I cringed at his name. It just got me SO angry.

"She said that she actually wished that one day you two could be together. She said when she was younger she used to hate it when she found out girls liked you. She was always jealous" She laughed. "And she said that even up till this day, she would always wonder what it would feel like being your girlfriend."

I felt so bad. I always had these girls on my dick every minute of the day and I know for a fact she was jealous. But she'd never say anything. She always did say she just wanted me to be happy. Truth is I had so many girls but none of them made me happy. But as soon as I would see Cassie I would feel so happy inside. Even when she looks my way I get happy. And trust me, not talking to her for all them months KILLED ME. I don't know how I done it. But now.. I regret it and I feel like a PRICK.

"Listen son, she loved you and I know damn well you loved her. And I just want to thank you so much for looking after her. For all these years and I couldn't have asked for a better person."

"It's cool" I said looking up at her

I scoffed. "So what happens next? Where do we go from here?" I asked

She shrugged. "We plan her funeral and we move on" She said.

I don't wanna move on.

"I know what you're thinking. You don't want to move on but trust me, it's the best and only thing to do. Before she went she said that she wanted you to move on and to be happy. Truly happy. She wants you to forget about her and focus on your future. Getting your education, going to uni getting a good job and having a beautiful family. And I don't know about you but that sounds like a good plan" She said

I nodded..

"Thanks Jennette" I said hugging her.

I got up and left her. I made my way back into my hospital room. I looked around and sighed. She's gone. Forever. I felt myself go dizzy ..and faint .. "Fxck" I whispered. I couldn't handle all this. Now I wanted to die. I struggled to find my balance. I fell to the ground and blacked out.