Farm Boy | k.taehyung [COMPLETED]

~Hypocrite~

"I don't get it."

"How is it so hard to understand?" I let out a sigh.

He blinked at me, not uttering a word. I raked my hand through my hair, beginning to regret ever opening my mouth to confess. There was no going back. I had to force myself through this because I knew the longer I kept it in, the more it would bother me.

"Basically, I don't know how or when I started to feel like this but I think-"

Once again I choked on my words. It was slowly getting all too painful.

"You think?" he asked, waiting for me to continue.

"I think that maybe I might like you more than a friend," I quickly blurted out. My mouth spoke faster than my brain could think. I had to take in a deep breath after to calm myself down.

I waited for him to respond. I didn't know how he was going to. Would he laugh?

"I...I don't understand what you mean."

"For the love of God!" I exclaimed, throwing my arms in the air. Why could he not get it? I didn't want to keep on embarrassing myself like that.

"Are you- Is this a confession?"

"Yes, it is."

His pupils widened and his jaws fell as he let out a gasp, "Ohh, it makes sense now."

"Is that all you have to say?" I asked with disbelief very evident in my voice.

That was certainly not the kind of response I was hoping to get from the first person I had confessed to. In fact, the whole situation wasn't how I had pictured my love life to go. I would have never expected for me to be confessing to a farm boy in his bedroom, situated in the middle-of-nowhere.

"What would you like me to say?" he asked, "It is all hard to believe."

"Why would you think that?"

"Well because you are a celebrity and I'm just a normal country guy."

"I wouldn't exactly call you normal," I said, under my breath.

"What did you say?"

I shook my head and told him it was nothing. And that was it with my rather undramatic and uneventful confession. On the bright side, at least I had finally clarified things with not only him but myself.

I never actually believed that I liked him until I said it out loud. And that was the first time I had realised how I had felt. Clearly my confession wasn't going to be the start of something new because of how nonchalant his response had been. My next move was to simply move on and actually focus on getting my life together.

For the rest of the week, I decided to keep a distance from Taehyung. Thankfully it wasn't very challenging because he too seemed to be avoiding me. I had probably traumatised him enough with my sudden confession for him to want to avoid me so much.

However due to having to share the same room, bumping into each other at some points was inevitable. Therefore, my plan to not speak to him at all somewhat failed when we were forced to interact over the dinner table. I didn't want anyone getting suspicious and getting involved in our situation so I had to make things look as normal as possible.

I focused on farming and helping Yosub's grandma run her small restaurant. It helped me keep my mind occupied in order to stop myself from thinking about him. I did whatever I could to keep myself busy and away from Taehyung's house. Even if it meant helping the scary ahjuushi clean cow poop on his farm.

"Did you lock the tool shed properly?"

"Yes I did," I replied.

"Thank you for the help," he nodded before taking the keys from my hand. I quickly bowed at the scary ahjusshi before heading out of his house.

Shades of orange and red painted the sky as I watched the sun slowly sink behind the horizon. I stood still as the sun set, it was one of the perks of being in the countryside. There were no tall skyscrapers here to block the view of sunsets that I didn't think much about before.

I continued with my journey home once the sky had been darkened with only clusters of stars to guide me past the fields.

I crinkled my nose when the smell of cow poop on my boots travelled up to my nostrils. The thought of having to walk into Taehyung's house in this state was a little embarrassing.

So I made the decision to walk through the fields, towards the river. The stream was calm and gentle. I crouched down and let the cold water snake through my fingers.

I sat on the large rock and took off my boots. I spent the next few minutes, cleaning my boots with my bare hands and humming a tune to myself.

"Is that you, Ara?"

"Oh God!" I was taken aback, causing me to drop my boot into the river. Letting out a sigh, I reached forwards to rescue it.

Wonderful, I thought. Now the insides of the shoe was wet.

I had almost forgotten about the person behind me. The sound of the grass crunching beneath their feet caused me to turn around.

My heart hammered against my chest as I saw his face. I slowly stood up and met his eye level.

"What are you doing here?" I asked.

"I just needed some fresh air to clear my mind. How about you?" he looked down at the soggy boot in my hand.

"I was just cleaning off the cow poop."

He chuckled, scratching the back of his neck. We fell into silence, only the sound of the stream and our breaths accompanying us.

"I wanted to talk to you about that thing-"

"What thing?" My heartbeat was getting increasingly faster. I knew exactly what he wanted to talk to me about. But I had been hoping that he wouldn't bring it up again. I wanted to run away but that seemed tricky since there was only the two of us here.

"For the past few days I have been thinking a lot about what you had said. In fact, that was basically all I ever thought about."

Great, I had traumatised him. Well done Ara.

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath in. When I opened my eyes, he had stepped closer. I couldn't move back or else I would have plummeted into the river.

"Look," I began, "I regret saying those things so blatantly and I'm sorry that it has caused you so much trouble. I just wanted to get things off my chest and I clearly disregarded your feelings. I'm sorry for being so selfish. Please don't feel forced to talk about it any further. Let's just move on and start on a clean slate."

I let out a large breath as if I had just ran a marathon. Well, that was how my insides felt like anyways.

"But I don't want to."

Before I could even process and calculate what he had just said, he was already leaning closer to me. Our faces were only inches apart and his ragged breath tickled my skin. His eyes lowered to my lips and his gaze lingered there, I too did the same with his.

What I did next basically made me the biggest hypocrite. But at that moment in time, I wasn't thinking very rationally.

My eyes fluttered shut as our lips touched.

A/N Finally it has happened. I'm currently trying to plan how many more chapters I have left for this story, since I have planned everything to the very end. I'm thinking that this story will have no more than 50 chapters. Maybe I will finish within the next three or four months.