When I Stop Chasing

Chapter Fifty

Chapter Fifty

Not

I stared at her face. Parang maraming nagbago sa kanya, Her face are full of colors now. Kung dati ay parang allergic pa siya sa make-up ngayon ay hindi na. A lot have changed at her actually!

Gusto kong tingnan kung anuman ang kanyang suot ngayon but I can't, Nakatingin lang talaga ako sa kanya. Pero ramdam na ramdam ko ang sobrang pagbabago sa buong pagkatao niya. Her eyebrows were perfectly on fleek, Kita ko ang pulang tinta na nasa kanyang labi at ang kulay ng kanyang buhok.

It feels so awkward. 'Yung tipong dati sobrang close kami and now, Look where stupid love brought us... To broken friendship. How pathetic, right? I can't help not to cringe at that thought. It was too childish. Broken friendship just because of one boy. Sinayang namin ang pagkakaibigan para lang sa pagibig, Is this what it is all the time? To lose something just to have love in your hands...

Sumikip ang aking dibdib, I treated her as my friend, even as my own sister and we cut all those ties because of Jao. All this time, I mourn for what we lost, the friendship... Nasa loob ko pa rin lahat ng iyon, lahat ng aking desisyon at pagkakamali.

Ngumiti siya sa akin, I can't help not to react at it! Lumunok ako, still doubtful what to do next.

Ang huling pagkikita namin ay iyong sa supermarket, And shit! Naalala ko 'yung dahil sa post niya ay sumugod ako sa flat ni Jao. God, That was all because of her! I almost cursed her to death that day and now? Ngingiti pa ba ako?

But I did.

Lalong lumapad ang ngiti niya at lalo akong nakonsensya sa mga pinag-iisip ko sa kanya. I missed her, really. Sobrang simple lang niya dati and that what I liked about her, she works to sustain her education, she works for her Mom, she works for herself. That were one of the reasons why I befriended her, She's so simple. I like her, I like her principles, I like the whole of her.

Bakit nga ba namin sinira yung friendship?

"Hi," Bati niya sabay ngiti ulit nang siguro mahalata ay ni hindi pa ako gumagalaw. I didn't even lift any of my fingers! I stared at her infectious smile, God, I miss her!

Ngumiti ako pabalik, I almost felt my lips quivered. Ang mabilis na pagpintig ng aking puso ay hindi nakatulong.

"Hey," May pagaalinlangan kong bati.

Kung baha lang ang awkwardness baka kanina pa kami natangay 'neto. Lumunok ako ulit, I could feel my cold sweats on my forehead. Ang aking tiyan ay para bang bumabaliktad baliktad dahil sa kaba. I don't even know why I'm nervous.... What the hell, right?

"Bibili ka rin ng cake?" Tanong niya at tumango ako.

"Favorite ng mom ko cake dito e," I coyly said as I play with the tip of my hair. Croo croo, kulang nalang ay iyon na ang marinig ko.