When I Stop Chasing

Chapter Thirty-Three

Chapter Thirty-Three

Departure

I was frowning at Laxa whose eyes were all on Jao now. Seryoso ba siya do'n? Because I think not. Si Laxa kasi yung tipo ng babae na mabilis magka-crush, 'Yung tipong may dumaan lang na pogi sa harap niya ay crush na niya 'yun, 'Yung tipong nagkatitigan lang sila for nanoseconds at medyo may itsura 'yung lalaki ay crush na agad 'yun, 'Yung tipong tinulungan lang siya at gwapo 'yung lalaking tumulong sa kanya ay crush na agad 'yun.

Ayoko paniwalaan yung sinabi niya, She's probably joking! You cannot just declare your love to someone you just met for the first time! Walang love at first sight, Hindi totoo 'yun! That's a bull!

Inalis ko ang tingin ko sa muhka ni Laxa at bumaling kay Jao na kumakanta pa rin. Umiling ako, Laxa can't be serious with what she said dahil kilala ko si Laxa, Hanggang crush lang 'yun at hindi siya seryoso sa lahat ng sinasabi niya well sometimes...

Hindi ko alam kung bakit sobrang ang dami kong iniisip tungkol sa pagkacrush ni Laxa kay Jao, I don't know what's with me right now. I just feel something wrong inside of me. Something's odd the moment Laxa declared her admiration for Jao. Biglang akong nainis? Nairita? Hindi ko na alam!

I licked my lower lip and tried to relaxed myself, I need to calm down!

Dahil kung hindi ay baka kung saan pa ito mapunta. I just don't understand myself, Something twitched inside of me when Laxa said she wants Jao. Hindi ko na talaga alam! Pakiramdam ko ayaw kong ipakilala si Jao kay Laxa, Hindi ko alam kung bakit. I'm one fcked up human being right now. Kahit ako ay naguguluhan na sa sarili ko.

Jao is my friend, Jao's my close friend, Jao is the friend I wanted to treasure from the very start. Jao is the friend I lost years ago, Jao is the friend who has been part of me. Jao is my friend and Laxa is my friend, But I can't see them on a relationship, Hindi pwede!

I bit my lip trying to keep my shits together, Naiinis ako. And I don't know why! Dapat hindi ako naiinis! I shouldn't feel this feeling! I chewed the inside of my cheeks as Jao bid a goodbye to the audience.

Biglang bumilis ang pagtibok ng puso ko, Bababa na siya ng stage. Knowing Jao, nakita na niya siguro ako so he would probably go to me. And I'm with Laxa, And Laxa likes Jao!

Napapikit ako nang makita ko na papalapit na si Jao sa direksyon namin.

I saw how Laxa's eyes were carefully watching Jao making his way to where we sit right now. Tumingin si Laxa sa akin at pinsil ang kamay ko, Muntik na akong mapairap sa kanya buti nalang ay napigilan ko.

"Shit, Beh! Pupunta siya dito!?" Aniya at medyo inayos ang buhok niya, Doon na ako tuluyang umirap sa ginawa niya, As if naman titingnan ni Jao kung maayos ang buhok niya o hindi!

"Hey," Ani Jao at ang malalim na dimple na naman niya ang sumalubong sa mata ko, I just showed him a small smile then I suddenly felt a light pinches on my hand, Si Laxa 'to! I cleared my throat at tumingin ulit kay Jao.