The Internship #Wattys2017

Chapter |35|: Emotional Rollercoaster

Envy is not an emotion worth feeling. It drives you crazy, Processes your brain. Makes you think the good guy is the enemy. Every emotion changes the truth and leaves that person crying and screaming for all the drama to stop. They made the drama~ Maurice Mitchell

Trying to find Maurice I will put at the top of my list for extremely hard tasks. It's like he's some hormonal superhero. If I wasn't crying out for satisfaction he wasn't showing up.

After approximately 28 calls. Yeah so accurate. He answered. Well he answered with a text.

Finally gave up to me?

Yeah he's so full of himself. Deciding to play along I lied and said yes. He showed up within a couple minutes and here we are sitting in my room with him in my swivel chair with his arms crossed and an angry expression.

I tapped my left leg as it remained crossed over my right. I looked at Maurice as he tilted his head waiting for me to explain why I lied.

"Zach came over"

"And"

"He said a lot of interesting things"

"And"

I shook my head. "He seems to want me to ask you questions about your friendship" I said and he opened his mouth to talk before I cut in. "Do not just say And"

"And... Wow"

"Maurice, Why is he taking this so seriously?"

"How am I supposed to know? Zach's not my priority anymore"

"He shouldn't have been anyway"

"Faith why am I here?"

"I wanna know what happened with Zach"

He stayed quiet and his nose twitched.

"Maurice-"

"Don't worry about it" He said raising his voice a little and I sunk back down. "Why do care so much about Zach? You wanna sleep with him that bad?"

"What are you talking about? I want you"

"And" He replied and I stood up.

"Stop freaking saying that, Why are you being a jack ass?"

"Because you got me here just for dumb ass Zachary Bradley. He doesn't matter! What's so special about him?" He asked and I could hear his voice crack.

"I want you. Not him"

"That's not what the voicemails said" He said lowly as his gaze went down. "Did you not think that would hurt me?... It did"

I walked towards him and he stepped back. "Zach and I were neighbors. We met at school. Our dads were best friends. His dad made a move on my mom and that's what ended their friendship. Zach and I continued being friends but for some reason he seemed like he hated me.. Maybe using me. I let it go. My parents wanted me to stop hanging out with him. He eavesdropped. But he didn't hear me say no. After that he's been very distant towards me. He called me these names and spread rumors that I used money to buy happiness. After that my dad really didn't like the fact zach told everyone I wanted to be a writer. No my dad said that's not what I have the potential for. He locked me in my room for days until I refused to write. So cruel. Zach and I then eventually talked again. We were good. Then he became jealous and very secretive. And now. Well we're here"

"..I'm sorry he did that"

"So sorry that you'd cheat on me with him?"

"I'm so sorry. I wouldn't have-"

"You would've. He apparently has that power over women.. My women. Its fine. I don't hate you. In fact it's your life I don't control you"

I felt my eyes water up. "Maurice-"

"Just" He said through clenched teeth and took a deep breath. "That's why I didn't want to confront you, You'd cry and at the end I'd feel bad for you betraying me" He said sounding like any minute he'd cry. "Please just tell me what's so special about him"

"Nothing-"

"Or what's so bad about me"

I sniffled. "You're fine, You're perfect"

"No ones perfect, I let myself believe perfect could happen. It can't happen. It's impossible."

"Please" I breathed out. "Don't cry"

"I got a call. Your job starts in two days. I decided to decline. Maybe you were right this whole time. I don't look like an author"

"I was naïve, That girl who said she didn't judge a book by it's cover but did it all the time. Don't let what I said back then ruin us. What we-"

"There is no us, I'm sorry I had to break it to you. There's just faith and Maurice. You and me. Maybe Zach's okay with dating you after I already left" He said before walking towards the door and I tried to push him away as my tears started to blur my vision.

"Don't you dare go" I sobbed while pushing him and he wouldn't move. "Please move"

"Faith let go of me"

"Go" I dragged out as I felt myself become weak the more I pushed. "Talk to me"

He grabbed me and tried to move but I kissed him. He didn't kiss back.

He just looked at me and looked the other direction when I pulled away.

"I'm not a bad person, I made a mistake. Everyone makes mistakes"

"I'm tired of mistakes"

"Please" I cried out and he walked towards the door and opened it.

"Maurice, I love you"

He stopped and looked at me. "And"

That's all he said before walking out of the door and going downstairs leaving me to drop to my knees and cry in my hands.