The Internship #Wattys2017

Chapter |39|: Goodbyes and Hello's

Never think of something as the ending. It's not the ending.. There is no ending. The only thing that's actually there when you feel like something is over is called a finish. But an ending can't happen because for there to be and ending the person's story would be over. And I promise this story isn't over. ~ Maurice Mitchell

Faith

Tell the truth..

Do I seem like a snob?

Do I offend people way too much?

Am I only causing emotional harm to myself?

Do I need to take a hard look at myself in the mirror and figure out what I want?

Perhaps I do, My constant need to get the last word or to have the last laugh seems to be what drives others away. What drives my friends away, What keeps me from gaining friends, What makes my family nag about everything I do.. What makes a man who loves me run away because I can't seem to be a better person.

Depressed person. I could be, I should be. Unable to cope without thinking about how your words hurt others for what they did.

Yes, I have Zach.. Sometimes. He has his club which is by far amazing and I'm so proud and happy for him. Then I am also empty.. This wasn't supposed to happen. After the internship we we're supposed to live happily ever after like the three musketeers with a hint of erica or whoever that girl was I talked to.. Mya? 

Maybe that's an example on how I played myself. All of this Just makes me feel like I'm missing something. Like this isn't how my life was meant to go and I didn't get what I wanted.

One thing I do know is we all met for a reason and I refuse to let this happen again.. I refuse to.. I can't.

"I still think this is a crazy idea, Happy you're following my advice but it's crazy"

I glanced at Zach and continued driving straight ahead. Might be curious where I'm going. Well where would a woman who has all of her dreams left in Virginia go? To that place to find my true love.

Wow that sounded cheesy and extremely Prince Charming and Cinderella like.. I think I cringed at myself

"There's a possibility he won't even be there" Zach said while glancing out of the window then back at me then back out the window as he repeatedly tapped his foot seeming jittery before he looked at me again. "He did say-"

"Zach will you stop doubting me?" I asked while gripping the steering wheel as I glanced at him. "Maurice and I aren't meant to be apart.. I can't be away from him anymore"

"I know faith and I totally see your problem it's so sad yet romantic but I don't want this to go wrong. If he's not there then the cringe is real and I can't handle being the one who helps you from damn near having a panic attack"

"I don't know what you want from me zach" I mumbled as I turned left towards the airport where traffic was angrily waiting. I groaned and hit the wheel as I stopped the car waiting for cars to move.

I felt a hand touch my knee then squeeze lightly as I looked over at Zach who was looking at me with sympathy in his expression.

"All I want is for you two to be happy without any tears or yelling or leaving. I want this to actually be the real thing, When you two get back together I won't be there, My business is elsewhere, I don't want to worry"

I gave him a small smile and pushed his hand off of me. "I'm a big girl and Maurice.. He's a big boy"

Zach made a face. "That's disgusting" He pointed towards the road. "Drive"