"Okay buts its a ear full. " i said looking into the sky from under the shady area. "Ill listen all the way through. It is my duty as a father. " shikaku said as he smirked. I breathed in and out. Taking a deep breath i sighed. I closed my eyes. "OKAY. first off. Im not from this world. I shouldn't have been brought here but wherever holle go. I go. We are 2 individual beings but we are tied to eachother like the shoe to the lace. She got brought here. So did i. Its our destiny to be together. Nothing will change that. And when she leave. She and i may be forgotten. But i don't want shikamaru to forget about me. I came here hoping not to meddle with major things but instead holle had to go change the story line. Gaara was ordered to attack the leaf. But he did. Orochimaru was supposed to attack and kill lord third. But he didnt. Naruto had supposed to fought gaara and become his friend by force. She isnt supposed to mess with major stuff. Now just because she did that. Sakura wouldnt acknowledge naruto for saving her and naruto wont gain alot of respect for sasuke for trying to protect him with his life. Orochimaru didnt lose his arms so now hes more dangrous then what he is in the ... Future." I said as i opened my eyes looking at shikaku as he looks as me amazed i know so much but nods as a signature for me to go on. "So now its triple the trouble for orochimaru. The fifth hokage wont be found because of lord third absent death. So that means that she wont be able to protect the village from an attack causing alot of... Pain. She messed up the timeline. No one got stronger from lord third's death because he didnt die. I mean thats irritating. Then when the time comes to where she has to fight raiden. Im going to have to back her up. Im just her shadow. I dont wanna be her shadow. I wanna be my own person. My own being. But its physically and spiritually impossible. The only person who gave me my own being is shikamaru. And im not saying this because we go out at the moment. But because i truly love him. And holle gonna mess it up for me because when i leave this universe i would be forgotten. I just dont know what to do anymore. So i just tried to break my bond with holle. But i cant kill her. No thats out the question. She cant kill me either. And so we will just be forever tied to eachother by fate. In my attempt to break my bond with her through these exams has been breaking me. Literally. I been trying so hard that ive been forgetting memory from a while back. It happens every tine i try breaking my bond with holle. Its a set back on myself. Meaning if i was to grow to distant from holle i would have no memory of what has happened. I would even forget shikamaru and thats something i can't do. " i said sitting up. Shikaku just listened closely as i looked at him sighing. "Its about her. Its always been. And nothing can change that." I said holding back tears that threatened to get out. "Hm. That was an ear full. Geez. " shikaku said as he shut his eyes nodding. I got irritated at that. "You know your no hel-" "i am really cause i listened. And now im thinking of the best advice to give you. The only thing i can come up with is follow your heart. If your second guessing stuff to much, Go with the best answer that fit your needs. " he said as he put a caring hand on my shoulder. I wiped my eyes clean of tears. Follow my heart. Do what's best for me. But whats the point if i cant figure out whats best for me. I just dont know anymore. "Thanks for the advice." I said hugging him. He hugged me back. "No problem." I stood up and stretched. "I should get to going now. Thanks for the talk. " i said waving at him walking to the edge of the roof. I jumped off and onto another roof until i got to my apartment.
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I laid on my bed looking out my bedside window. Looking up at the moon i reach out towards it like i can grab it. "Something thats best for me... " i thought out loud quietly. "I dont know what to do! " i groaned out in frustration as i roughly ruffled my hair sitting up. I got out the bed and walked to my full body mirror. I looked at myself in digust. "All you will be is her shadow. Nothing more nothing less. " i spat to myself in disgust. Then i opened my hand as a black crystal shard appear. I wanna be different from her. Peeople think yugi, 'oh holle bestfriend' or 'holle's other half' like holle this holle that. Im my own being and i wanna get treated like it. I grabbed my knee length hair as I brought the shard up to it. Then something flashed in my head. I seen a couple flashes of holle in a blue ankle length dress and she cut her hair to mid back. I dropped the shard as it shatter and dissolve. I fall onto the floor as i started breathing heavily. "Im no different. We was even doing the same thing at the same time. I will never be different from her. " i said as i fell onto my back. My hair spreaded around me like it was in water. "Something i want... Something thats best for me. " i thought long and hard about that measly sentence. "What do i actually want. Do i just want shikamaru. Or do i not wanna leave this world. Here i had friends. A boyfriend. Love, and senseis. I had Peace & Power. Most of the village didnt look down on me. Not even most. The WHOLE village didnt look down on me. And im loved here. But for holle to only think about herself is outta the question. Thinking about something thats best for me is hard because im not sure yet. " i was talking to myself as i stood up. "I need to relax. Im giving myself a headache. The answer to my question will come to me soon. And when it does im taking immediate action. " i said turning sharply on my feet and leaping into my bed. I looked at the ceiling relaxed until i fell asleep.
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I got up and stretched. I walked out my room and into the bathroom. I looked at myself. I looked like shit. I had dark circles under my eyes meaning i didn't even get enough sleep as it is and then my hair was all over the place. I had a pounding headache. Im not feeling it today. I brushed my teeth and washed my face as i grabbed a brush and started to brush my hair down. After a while i stopped and then my hair was straight. Then suddenly my spikes popped out my hair giving it a manga madara hair style. I didnt complain cause i knew it was gonna happen. I put the brush down and changed into my favorite ninja outfit (refere back to chapter 19. ) i walked into the kitchen and ate some cereal. Today was a boring day for me. I wasnt as enthusiastic to do anything other then think about my answer. I grabbed my fan and looked at it. I took a real long look at it. Opening it and all. I need something new. I strapped it onto my back as i raced to see lord third.
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I made it to his office and took deep breath way before i entered. I caught my shaky and exhausted breaths as i entered the room. The anbu greeted me as i slightly bowed to each one of them. "What is it yugi? " the hokage said puffing on his pipe. "I want to find vibranium. I need it for something. " i said. He coughed up smoke, i guess it going down the wrong pipe. Heh see what i did there. "WHAT! THAT SUBSTANCE, THE EXISTENCE ITSELF IS EXPENSIVE AND VALUABLE. " he shouted. "I know but im asking you where to find it since i cant get none from here. " i said looking at him. "Its too dangerous even for a chunin. And speaking of which why isn't your chunin flak jacket on?? And where's your headband?" The hokage asked me. "At home lord third but my headband and jacket isnt important. What is important is that vibranium." I said. "What do you need it for? " he asked. "A special comb for my hair. " everybody sweatdropped. Sighing in disappointment. "A freaking COMB!!? " an anbu yelled. "Yesh. I need my hair looking the best it could. " i said flipping it. The hokage thought long and hard. "Okay. But you get 1 canister. 1 yugi! " he said as i started cheesing. Then an anbu showed me to the stash away. Well he had to take me there blindfolded and all. But when he took the blindfold off i was sorta freaked out. I know we probably so far down because i dont sense any other chakra above my head and i can sense from a 250° range. Anyway i look around as i seen a safe kinda. The anbu look at me and used his fingerprint and eye scan to get in. I didnt know they had that kind of tech. Anyway he entered and hurried out handing me a water bottle sized metal canister filled with virbranium. I need alittle more. "Thanks. Now take me outta here. " i said as the anbu grabbed me and we poofed. I felt like i entered a worm hole. Like i been shoved back up the womb, birthed out and swallowed into space and took a rainbow trip back to the earth we live on. The anbu let me go in the streets of konoha as i stumbled and fell on my knees. Oh my gawd. That is... Im never doing that. It gave me- i cut my own self off in my thoughts as I threw up. "Yea kid. Happened to me the first time. Youll get used to it. " the anbu said patting my back before popfing. I shook my head. That dip shit didnt even help. I wonder how clones be feeling. Or summoned animals. Damn. I wiped my mouth. Now i gotta go sterilize my mouth of this god awful taste and smell. "YUGI! " i look to my side seeing shikamaru run to me. He cant see me like this. I quickly cover my throwup with dirt as he got closer. "Yugi wait why havent you been-" i started flickering and i flashed him a apologetic look before i vanished right infront of his eyes.
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Fading Light! (A Naruto Story)
FanfictionThis is a naruto story. Yes a naru fan fiction.
