Blue Neighbourhood

t w e n t y

TROYES POV

New York has been way too good for me.

The people here are amazing.

Matt is amazing.

Life for me now, was something that I never want to end.

~

Matt is still asleep.

He looks so beautiful.

I'm very much awake now so why not just get on my laptop.

I check my email, since I haven't looked at it in over a month.

My inbox was full, but one particular email caught my eye.

It was from Adam.

Dear Troye,

You don't have to reply if you don't want to.
I'm just wanted to invite you to my father's funeral.

I honestly didn't think I was going to say this until years from now,but sadly I do.

The funeral is this Sunday at 6:30 pm.

I hope you make it.
I get it if you don't want to come. But, please just think of me this one time. I'm alone. I lost both my parents now and I just need to see you.

This is still your decision to make. I don't want to pressure you.

I just don't want to be alone anymore.

-Adam

My heart felt like it exploded.

Literally.

Why the hell did I leave?

Adam needs me.

But at the same time I needed to get away from everything.

Sure it hurts seeing Adam like this, but he hurt me just as much.

I wish we could just go back to when we were kids.

Even to the days that I wished never happened.

*Flashback*

Adam is 12

Troye is 10

"Tag you're it!"

"Adam you're so much faster than me this game isn't fun anymore."

"You're just a sore loser! C'mon Troye catch me if you can!"

Adam began running. I chased after him.

"I'm gonna get you Adam."

"Then run faster Troye!"

I ran faster and faster until I honestly had no other choice but to tackle him.

I jump towards Adam and I pull him to the ground.

We both immediately pile on top of each other.

"Tag you're it!"

Adam rolls over me so now he's on top of me.

"Now, you're it."

We didn't move.

We just locked eyes at each other.

As if out of nowhere, Adam kissed me.

That same feeling I had felt for months, was as strong as ever.

When Adam let go, he looked like he had seen a ghost.

He gets off of me and just starts running away from me.

"Adam, where are you going?!"

He turned and looked at me and said,

"We have to just stay friends Troye.

It's just that I'm scared that I'm going to fall in love with you."

He ran away and never looked back.

*End of Flashback*

I don't why, but I start to cry.

I've never told anyone what happened that day. And we never talked about it again.

I didn't mention it, nor did he.

Even 10 years later, I still care about Adam the same way I did when we were kids.

I can't just leave him alone right now. Even if things are still a mess, I have to do this for Adam.

for him.