Blue Neighbourhood

t w e n t y - t w o

TROYES POV

I found myself sitting on stone cold steps after trying to walk away as far as I could from everybody.

I should have never came here in the first place.

I should have never said hello to Adam that day I saw him at the cafe.

I should have just excepted the fact that Adam was going to be gone forever.

I should have never fell in love with him.

After a good 20 minutes in silence and sitting, I felt I tap on my shoulder.

I look up and see that it was Adam.

Great.

I get up and I just stare at him waiting for him to speak.

But he was about as silence as me.

"Well aren't you going to say something?"

I finally say a bit rude.

"I have to tell you something and before you have to say anything else you have to wait till I'm done speaking. Got it?"

"Yea whatever." I tell him.

"Okay let me just start from the beginning.

The day after you had came over to my house for the first time since I moved back, my dad had found your wallet.

He go into a fight with me about it and it ended up getting physical and after he was done he looked me straight in the eye and said, 'If he comes back here one more time I'll kill both of you.' And that scared the shit out of me Troye.

I needed to protect you.

So before I broke up with you I needed to have at least one last time with you were I could still love you.

Then when I did break up with you, all things I told you was a lie.

I've always loved you.

You were never my little experiment.

And I am a complete idiot for lying to you, but I didn't want to see you get hurt.

I would rather have my dad kill me just to make sure that you would be okay.

And then after he died he left a little note for me.

It basically said that he was finally okay for me to love you.

He said that he was sorry for all the hurt he put me through.

And for him to make it up to me, he wanted me to love whoever I wanted.

Better late than ever huh?"

I stare at him with a look that was filled with confusion, hurt, but somehow also relived.

"It's your turn to talk if you want."

I couldn't say anything.

I could only think of one thing to do.

I grab him and I pull him into a hug.

Not just a little pat on the back hug.

I hugged him and held onto him so tightly.

It was like I was scared he would let go.

Before things started to get even more intense Adam lets go and turns and sees his little 'girlfriend' of his.

She looked just as hurt as I was a few months ago.

But deep down inside I don't care that her feelings were hurt.

I never really liked her anyways.

Adam turns and starts to walk after her.

"Sarah wait!"

She just keeps walking faster.

Adam didn't say anything to me.

Before he left he just gave me an apologetic look and walked away.

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I don't know what to do now.

There's only one thing that I do know for sure though,

I not going back to New York.