Leaving love

The lies

“And Medusa was nice.” I added on. “Nice.” Dee rushed to the window.

“None out there…Maybe in Asia, that’s where all the cool tech is…” Dee muttered.

“Delilah what the heck are you talking about?” Kris demanded.

“I’m checking to see if pigs are flying, sadly there aren’t any.” Mimi and I looked at our blonde BFF.

“You are such a blonde.” Kris sighed and whacked Dee’s head while Mimi laughed at her. I put my hand over my heart as I remembered the emotions I felt when Nick woke up in hospital.

I remember watching from outside the room again as Mackenzie sat by his bed and stared at his face and gingerly stroked it. Basically Nick woke up then. Mackenzie’s face lit up and she grinned happily as a few tears of joy trickled down her face.

“…Lia…Is that you?” He croaked out hopefully. The fact that he wanted to see me caused my heart to flutter and pick up it’s pace and my cheeks to heat up. Mackenzie’s face fell a little.

“No. It’s Mackenzie.” She said as she tried to cover up the hurt. Never the less he grinned at her, a grin he almost never shot at me, I felt my heart rip a little bit. It hurt.

“She didn’t visit now did she?” He asked and my heart began to flutter again. Stop it heart! I thought to myself harshly. I have Ant, I don’t need Nick. But that didn’t stop me from hoping Mackenzie would tell him the truth.

“No. Other than me and your family no one ever visited.” Mackenzie said realistically enough. I felt my heart shatter as Nick’s face fell a little but the annoying player-ish smirk replaced that happy care free grin that looked amazing on him.

I now under stood why people actually liked him, how could I have not noticed that there was a different side to Nick the player. To my best friend’s brother. Because I always hated him, I never gave him a chance, after both of us grew up a bit, Nick had stopped picking on me so much.

If I had given him a chance…Maybe we could have even become friends…or even more than friends…

No! It’s too late! Now we’re enemies! No less than that! We’re less than enemies! He’s a jerk! Absolutely nothing to me.

He’s Nickolas. The pain that always picked on me. The pain that mocked me. The pain that I hate. But he’s also Nick, the guy that makes me feel safe. The guy that cheers me up when I’m down. The guy that makes me believe in myself. The guy that always takes my side in the shadows. The guy that my sister loves.

Vivian.

Oh god what am I doing?

Crushing on my sister’s crush? Am I insane? I was going to leave the hospital but as if on it’s own will I had to turn back just once. And it crushed me. Nick was talking and laughing with Mackenzie and they were caught in a moment and he leaned forward and so did she. Their lips met and I dashed out of the hospital pushing past patients, nurses, doctors and visitors.

Oh god, how did I not notice, how could I have not known? For ages I had probably been crushing on Nick, ages, and I didn’t know.

I was about to wonder why but I figured out the answer pretty quickly. I was in denial for so long because it made it easier for me. It was easier to listen to Viv talk about Nick and their future together, easier to put of my jealousy towards her as jealousy that Nick had her to himself. Easier to hate him than the people he hooked up with.

God I am so niave. How could I have never known.  For god knows how long I’ve been crushing on my best friend’s brother. I dashed out of the hospital and eventually ended up at Mimi's house. So that's how i ended up surrounded by happy idiots when i wanted to curl up into a ball and cry.

Mimi’s mother had finally come home and we dug into a Japanese dinner which she had prepared. Mimi’s mother was a tall, willowy Japanese lady, with long straight black hair and eyes to match. She had full lips and although she lacked a few curves she looked amazing. Mimi looked little like her mother and according to Mimi’s mother, Mimi looked exactly like her father. Mimi stood out in almost all of her family photo’s like me, while for me, I stood out because of my dark brown curly hair and green eyes. Mimi stood out for having child-like and similar features to me while the rest of her family were tall dark and mature.

In fact, Mimi’s younger brother looked older than she did, her younger brother was also smarter than her, which didn’t really help. To be honest Mimi’s mother was normal, I don’t know what I expected but it was anything but her. And from observing the way she was I could tell that she adored her children and still loved him.

Who ever that guy was he was a low life scum.

After dinner we went to Mimi’s room and began gossiping. Dee and Kris were getting skinnier. It was starting to scare me a little but they didn’t listen and insisted that they were fat. We then had a true blood, twilight, vampire dairy and paranormal activity marathon.

Then we had a ‘spa day’ before going to sleep.

Or well they went to sleep, I tried but I couldn’t, I finally fell asleep to the image of Mackenzie and Nick in the hospital room behind my eyes. Nightmares about their happily ever after haunted me for the rest of the night.