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Dedicated to Kris for inspiring me to create the character Kris. Hope this cheers you up hon. Get well soon.
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I made it home with a smile on my face. Sebastian and Vincent were fighting over the television remote again. I stood there and waited for five minutes before taking the remote away and change the channel so I could watch America’s top model. Vincent and Sebastian were too engrossed in fighting that they didn’t even notice I had changed channel. Typical.
I sat there staring at the television. It was dull without Dee and Krissy here but it was okay. My mind drifted back to Nick. That look on his face made me feel so sad and guilty. I never knew why. I sighed and looked back to the times Nick made promises to me. They were few but he kept them.
I began to dwell in the past right at the moments he made those promises.
I flinched back from his furious face. I messed up big time and trashed his room, blew up his toy car and painted his bike pink. His fist was raised and he looked so scary. He looked at my terrified face and his expression changed.
“Lia, don’t you know yet, I can’t and won’t hurt you. I really don’t care about you but I won’t hurt you in anyway, I promise.” He said solemnly. I felt guilty for making him mad but what he said next completely changed the guilt to fury and hatred. “After all, that’s what you have your mother for right?” I gave him the ugliest look I could muster and slapped him
“You don’t know anything about me.” I hissed. He laughed.
“Little Lia standing up for herself at last.” He chuckled. “You aren’t a coward Lia; you aren’t like any of the shy girls in school with no confidence who get bullied. Don’t let anything or anyone change you. If you were like this in school, things would be different. He walked out of the room making me wonder what the hell just happened. Was Nicolas King bipolar? I mean how did he know about Randal bullying me, if Vivian wasn’t there for me to hide behind. Between mom and Randal’s comments, I’d have lost every ounce of self-confidence I possessed. I stared after him stunned and I decided that Nicolas King was a mystery.
He suddenly came back in and looked at my face expressionlessly.
“This doesn’t change anything, I still hate you.” He said before pulling one of his mysterious smiles and walking out on me.
I sighed and went to Ant’s room and flopped down on the bed, trying to ignore my heart as it tried to beat out of my chest.
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I sat down in front of Nathan’s grave, I felt a presence sit next to me and wrap their arms around me, and I turned my face into the crook of Nick’s neck. He sighed and started to stroke my hair comfortingly. I sniffed and tried my best to hold my tears in.
“Did you know about this before me?” I asked accusingly, the question had been nagging at me for a while, Nick stiffened and didn’t respond. I was the last person to know of Nathan’s condition and the last person he spoke to. His last words to me were: I love you Lia, I know sometimes I don’t show it, especially around mother and Vincent and Sebastian, but you’re my favourite. I’m sorry I won’t be able to be there for you and scare boys away from you but I have to go. I’m sorry. Remember, no matter what Mother and other people say, you’re worth everything and more. Don’t let anyone convince you otherwise. I love you Kitten.
I felt a tear run down my face as I remembered those words. My brother never had the chance to live life before he was ripped away. I still needed my big brother, Vincent and Sebastian just weren’t Nathan.
“Yes.” That one word just punctured my heart, shredding another piece away.
“Why didn’t you tell me? Everyone knew that it was terminal except for me.” I snapped accusingly.
“He didn’t want to crush you Lia. He wanted you to have faith and hope for the best until it wasn’t possible anymore.” He said soothingly.
“So having me find out wouldn’t crush me?” I snapped. He sighed and ran his fingers through his hair.
“Lia, he would go to the ends of the earth to make you happy. He knew how upset you would be, would you want him to spend his last days seeing you upset?” He explained as he wiped away a few tears I didn’t know were there. He hugged me tenderly.
“No.” I said and I let my voice trail off.
“See, that’s what I thought.” He said comfortingly. I cried into his chest and once I calmed down I just stayed there. Because in his arms, I could pretend he was Nathan.
“Promise me that you’ll never keep anything from me?” I asked shakily. He was quiet for a while before he finally said something.
“…Yes, I promise to keep no secrets from you.” I buried my face in his chest.
“By the way, this doesn’t change anything. I still hate you.” I said suddenly causing him to chuckle.
“We’ll see about that princess.”
My flashback ended there but it brought back the pain from those moments
I remember Vivian being furious about Nick promises to me. He always ignored her, he constantly teased me and made me feel stupid and inferior but that’s the way he is. Vivian just loved him for some strange reason.
No point thinking about the past.
I stood up and went to study. Without Krissy and Dee, I had nothing to do. What Mackenzie said flashed through my mind. What was wrong with that psychopath?
When I was done with my homework, I went to Skype my cousin Ashley.
“Hey Blaze.” I greeted.
“Hey brownie.” She responded instantly. It was a joke. It was ironic that my pretty red headed cousin was patient and almost never lost her patience. I however lost my patience a lot with certain people.
“How’re Olivia and Cynthia?” I asked. She grinned and launched into a story of how Cynthia sang a parody to Grenade before throwing eggs around calling them grenades. She was just so precious. A was a great friend and my favourite family member. We chatted until 11 and I went to sleep.
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