The Heart Wants What it Wants (Sequel to ILAC)

Chapter 59

James' POV

Friday, May 27th.

I looked at Oscar and Jacky once they kissed. I felt my heart break as I watched them kiss. I looked over and noticed that Cristiano was looking at me. I quickly looked away and looked at Dani and smiled.

James: Hey Dani would you mind holding Salo while I go to the bathroom. 

Daniela: I don't mind. 

James: Thanks. (he hands her Salome) 

Dani just nodded and I began to make my way to the bathroom. I felt myself getting angry, but upset at the same time. I walked into the bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror. I was angry at myself for loving Jacky the way I did. I got so angry that I punched the mirror. After I did that I quickly got out and went inside my car. I grabbed a cigarette and lit it. I drove out of the parking lot. I began to make my way towards the bar that's where I could escape from everything. It was an escape for me, and I loved it. I quickly arrived at the bar and got out of the car. I ordered a drink and that's when I noticed my knuckles were bleeding. I took a sip out of the drink and sighed. 

 Cristiano's POV 

I noticed when James left to the bathroom so I told Irina that I would be back. I walked to the bathroom and saw that there was a broken mirror and I looked on the ground and there were drops of blood. I quickly ran out and got inside the car. I knew exactly were James was going and it was the bar. I knew him so well already he was going to the bar. Once I arrived I got out of the car and looked around till I found James sitting there drinking his drink. I sat down next to him and looked at him. 

Cristiano: James. 

James: Leave me alone, I don't want to talk to you as of matter of fact I don't want to anybody. 

Cristiano: James, I've said this plenty of time but I am truly sorry. I care about you a lot I know why you are mad at me I get I would too. I should have never said that in the first place, but if I didn't care about I wouldn't be here right now. I came because I knew it hurt you once you saw Jacky and Oscar together and I wanted to show you that I cared. 

James: Just let me stay here all alone. 

Cristiano: I can't do that. I'm not leaving you alone I want to be here for you. 

James looked at me and back at his drinking his eyes were watery. That's when I noticed that tears were coming out of his eyes. I can't believe he was crying, I pulled him into a hug and he began to cry worse. Honestly I don't even know why I hugged him I mean it's to comfort, but it's weird. James pulled out of the hug, but didn't look at me once he just continued to drink his drink. 

Cristiano: James..

James: Cris, I forgive you I have realized all this time that I was mad at you that it was beyond stupid you were the only one that truly cared about me. I appreciate that from, but I don't if I could be friends with you at least not now. Part of me hurts that you had said to that and I would have wished so much to have died in that wreck I had. I'm tried of everything I'm tried of living I don't want to live. I'm just a waste of space. 

 I couldn't believe everything he was telling me. I was shocked, but I'm that he forgave me it was upsetting hearing James say those things. He isn't a waste of space it he is a great person. As I was lost in my thoughts James had finished yet another drink. 

James: Cris, go back you shouldn't be here go with Irina she needs you by her side right now. I don't. 

Cristiano: If we were under different circumstances I would have stayed with you. 

James: I know, but thank you. 

I walked away and got inside the car and drove off to the park. I hope I didn't take a long time, I arrived and walked towards Irina. I gave her a hug and smiled she just gave me a look. I noticed that Oscar and Neymar weren't here. Neither was Marcelo and Nicole which I found odd. Jacky was talking with Sergio Aguero. 

Cristiano: Where did Oscar, Nicole, Neymar, and Marcelo go? 

Irina: Well Marcelo went to go to look for James since he wasn't in the bathroom so Nicole said she would go with him because she wanted to know where James was. 

Cristiano: When did they make up? 

Irina: They didn't she just wanted to know if James was fine or not. 

Cristiano: Oh, what about Neymar and Oscar? 

Irina: They left a little while after Nicole and Marcelo left for the same reason. 

Cristiano: Oh okay. 

Irina: Where were you? 

Cristiano: Just went to take a breather. 

Irina: Oh okay. 

Cristiano: You know I'm happy that you're having a girl. 

Irina: I am too. 

I didn't want to tell her about how I went to look at James and found him at the bar. I took a sigh and pulled out my phone getting a message from James saying that he left the bar. I really wanted to leave so I could take him home, but I really couldn't. I couldn't leave Irina all alone. 

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I updated for you all again! I hope you enjoyed it. What do you think about James forgiving Cristiano? What do you think of Nicole going with Marcelo in the same car?