The Heart Wants What it Wants (Sequel to ILAC)

Chapter 78

James' POV

Friday, September 23rd. 

I was currently in practice and I looked around seeing the smiles on everyone's faces. These past few days I decided that the best thing to do was to pretend to be okay. To turn back to my old ways even though I was slowly dying inside every since day. I always put this fake smile whenever I'm practice or literally out anywhere in public. I spend most of my days practicing and in the gym. I feel everyday the need to get better at what I was doing and get in a better shape. I walked out into the field and began to jog. I noticed some difference in Isco's mood. He seems like he is happier. I mean he was happy before, but something was missing. Now it looked like nothing was missing for him. I snapped out of my thoughts whenever I felt someone tap me. I turned to look and noticed that it was Marcelo. If I wanted to pretend to be okay I knew I had to forgive him even though because of him I noticed how worthless I was. That I didn't really mean anything to this team, that they were better off without me. I took a deep breath and looked at the guy beside me as I jogged and he jogged beside me. 

Marcelo: Listen James would you mind to talk for a second? 

James: Um, no I don't mind. 

Marcelo: I wanted to say sorry to you, James. I'm sor- (he gets cut off by James) 

James: Don't worry, Marcelo. It's fine, I forgave you a long time ago. (he smiles) 

Marcelo: I just wanted to tell you that all the crap I said to you, it wasn't true. Nothing was true. I didn't mean those words. 

James: I told you, that it is fine. 

Marcelo: I missed you. 

James: Yeah, I missed you too. How about we go joke around with the guys? 

Marcelo: Really? That would be nice. (he smiles) 

I made sure that everyone thought I was back, hoping that I would convince myself that I was okay too. Today was a pretty much laid back day during practice. It was almost over, but we were just going to split into two teams and play against each other. Sergio Ramos and Cristiano were the ones that had to choose their teams. Sergio was the one that would choose first. 

Sergio: Let's see... James! (he smiles) 

Cristiano: Are you freaking kidding me! I wanted to get him first. (he glares at Sergio) 

Sergio: Sorry...not really. Doesn't it suck to suck? 

Cristiano: Rock, paper, scissors? 

Sergio: Nope, not going to happen I got him first! So live with it! 

Pepe: Is this seriously happening?

Karmin: Yep, James how does it feel on being fought over? 

James: Don't really know. 

Cristiano: Come on! 

Sergio: No!

Cristiano: Please.

Sergio: NO! 

Cristiano: PLEASE!! 

Sergio: Do you not know what N-O IS!

The fight continued, and it made me feel like I was actually good at what I was doing even though I know deep down that it probably is an act. Since they continued agree they ended up getting Pepe and Isco to choose the teams. Isco had got me on his team along with Cristiano because he said we were a 'package deal.' Our team ended up beating Pepe's team. The guys left and I told I was going to practice for a bit on my own before we leave, and that's exactly what I did.