Resurgence (Life After Allegiant - Divergent Fanfiction)

Chapter Fourteen

“You?! You…You.” I don’t have an insult big and bad enough to explain what I’m feeling right now. The feeling is too strong to try and even describe and usually I’m not lost for words.  Matthew laughs. Samuel laughs, I correct myself, I wonder where the name Matthew came from because Samuel must’ve been his first real name since it’s the one on his birth certificate. Unless he has two identities.  All of this makes sense now, how he knew about so much about me that someone shouldn’t unless they knew me. The phrase keep your friends close but your enemies closer seems humorous.

“Not what you were expecting?” He smirks and starts to pace from side to side in the dingy small room.  “You don’t know how long I’ve been waiting for this moment. I would watch you on the cameras in the Bureau, you were such an idiot at times, although your moments with Tobias were particularly moving.”  

“My relationship with my boyfriend is none of your business.” I shout at him, the only way I can I express my feelings, or even the surface of the angry depth. There’s a niggling in my brain that changes my relationship with my boyfriend is none of your business to my relationship with my boyfriend was none of your business. Like I have already given up on Tobias, he never gave up on me.

“Fiancé” Samuel corrects me, I scowl at him as much as my face will allow. His correction reminds me when Tobias corrected Caleb when we first got engaged, now Samuel is doing the same. I wonder if Samuel knows that Tobias told Caleb about our engagement and is trying to get my emotions to break me down. I will not break down, no matter what he does or says to me, I will stay strong, like my parents were.   

“What do you want with me? Why do you want to kill me?” I half ask, half growl. I hear the echoes of my angry voice swirl around me.  Samuel stops walking almost instantly  and it’s easy to miss the pain in his eyes but not impossible. It’s easier to spot pain when you’ve been introduced to it so many times.

“It was your fault Mom died. She gave up her life for you, just so you can waste her life’s work. It makes her a ghost with no way for anyone to remember her.  It’s all your fault.” He accuses me. I refuse to believe his words but I’ve always thought that myself but there was always the hope that I was wrong. This accusation makes one of my worst fears become reality; I killed my Mom and the legacy she died for.  My Father was exactly the same, he died for me but whether he died for the real reasons as my Mom we will never know until Matthew creates the serum to revive cremated people.

Wait if Matthew is Samuel  that means the whole thing about a serum for cremated people was a lie.

A lie so potent I don’t feel like living any more.

Maybe I’ll find Tobias in the place where I was only a few weeks before I was injected with the Resurgence serum.

The place with no worries and dangers.

The place where loves blooms so freely.

A thought of my thoughts flashes in my brain and I automatically want to know the answer, “Dad died for me too, you didn’t mention him though. Why not?”

“I’m going to let you into a little secret Beatrice, since you asked.” I wish I hadn’t asked now, I’m going to get answers that I’m not sure I’m ready for even though I kept telling myself I was.  Why can’t I just wonder in my head and not out loud? “Your Daddy isn’t my Daddy.”