Seducing My Cousin's Boyfriend

Chapter Fifty-seven

Hindi ako lumabas ng kwarto ko buong magdamag. The next day hindi pa din ako lumabas. My parents are knocking on my door asking why am I not going out. Kahit nung nag dinner hindi ako lumabas. I don't want to. I'm so ashamed of myself. But Mace and Kathlyn are blowing up my inbox. They kept on saying that I should go out and go to Kath's house. They want to go here but I told them not to. Ayoko munang makipag-usap kahit kanino.

I sighed and looked at my phone. It's ringing again. Wala akong kinakausap. Even Jake. I feel so tired. I actually don't know how I managed to get some sleep. Maybe because of crying, I mentally shut down.

Napa-upo ako sa kama ko ng bumukas ang pintuan. What the hell? I locked the door! I saw Jiedez entering with a tray with her and a key. Of course she has the key. Ugh. I lay down again on my bed.

"Wag mong parusahan ang sarili mo. Eat." Mataray niyang sabi.

I scoffed. Umupo ulit ako at kinuha sakaniya yung tray. Well, I'm kinda hungry. Hindi ako kumain kagabi. Hindi ako kumain kanina ng breakfast, yung lunch naman na dinala nila hindi ko naubos.

"Not because I slapped you yesterday and I'm so mad of what you did, doesn't mean I want to see you doing this to yourself." Sabi ni Jiedez.

I kept quiet.

"Jiezel, you can do better than this. I just can't believe you did that to your own cousin. You and Megan are best friends." Sabi niya pa.

"Love conquers all." I said.

She scoffed. "And now it's ruining the both of you." She said.

I sighed. "What do you want me to do? I love him. I can't leave him. Even though you slapped me so hard, that didn't change my mind, even if you slap me again." I said and looked straight to her eyes.

"Why didn't you stop when you know he's Megan's boyfriend? You could've stopped it!" Sabi niya.

"Marami akong na-realize kagabi. Kaya hindi ko nagawang umiwas sakaniya, dahil simula palang noon na hindi ko pa alam, I'm already attached to him and eventually I loved him, hindi ko lang matanggap dahil noong mga panahon na yon ay yung issue pa rin namin ni Eiji yung nasa isip ko. I'm afraid to fall in love again because of what happened to us. Then when I finally accepted the fact that I love Jake, I couldn't think the right thing. All I know is, one day he'll love me too." I said.

"Are you sure about that? I don't think so." She said.

"Why? Am I not lovable?" I asked.

"You are. But you can't make someone love you like how you want them to." She said.

I sighed. She's right. If Jake doesn't really love me...then... That sucks.

"Don't punish yourself, okay? Lumabas ka na. Punishing yourself won't do any good." Sabi niya at lumabas na ng kwarto ko.

The next day, I texted Mace and Kathlyn. Sabi ko pupunta ako sa bahay ni Kath.

Nag-ayos ako at kinuha ang susi ng kotse ko. I ignored Jake's texts. I don't know, I just don't feel like talking to him. I've been ignoring him for two days now. Tawag siya ng tawag. Basta nag text lang ako sakaniya ng isang beses kahapon. I told him, I need to fix some issues. But the truth is, I just want to rest from the pain.

The more I wanna leave him, the more the situation gets tough. That's why I'll end up staying. How fucked up is that?

One moment, I want to leave him, then for a second my mind would change. I am really out of my mind. I really need to calm my mind. Yung ako lang mag-isa. No disturbances.

Nang makarating ako sa bahay ni Kath ay nandoon na si Mace.

"So? Where do you want to go?" Tanong ni Mace.