Everyone leaves. You, my godmother's, my dad, Is it my fault? Why does everyone keep leaving me?! I'm going insane with the thought of how we all used to be a family and now all of you hate me. You left. No matter what happened I NEVER blocked you because I was worried you might need me...Now........You obviously don't even care what happens to me. If I live or die, you won't care. You're happy so I guess that's it huh? Nobody cares about Alyssa, and why should they? She's worthless, stupid, a waste of space. I've been through so much, physical ,emotional, verbal abuse, losing a sister, my mental illnesses, and none of it has made me feel this before. The overwhelming feeling of self hate and emptiness, loss for words, and just....I don't know. Sure I've dealt with negative emotions before do to said mental illnesses, but none has given me this feeling from losing a best friend. From losing someone who you once told everything to. No...I've felt this before in 7th grade. I was able to fix it that time but this time...You won't even give me a chance. You're fully done with me. You don't care if I died. You don't care how I feel. All you care about is your boyfriend. I don't know what to do anymore. Everyone always leaves and I can't handle it anymore. The only way to stop myself from getting hurt is to stop myself from getting close. Stop caring about other people and maybe then when they leave, it won't hurt as much.
-Alyssa
