I once had a family of people I could go to, now I have to leave classrooms to cry in the hall and go speak to the one person who is there for me...a teacher. It's cool, eventually people will see I'm dead or too messed up to even contact people. I know I've hurt people. I know I made mistakes. But I also know, nobody even cared I left. That's fine for them. I gave up on being the barely sticky tape holding everyone together. I couldn't do it anymore. I'm letting everyone go on with their own business. I PHYSICALLY CAN'T HANDLE OTHER PEOPLES STRESS RIGHT NOW. I have had to stay after school for an extra 20 minutes just talking with the teacher and walking around the school with them as I cried and opened up. They're the only person I can even slightly trust. Whenever I open up to someone, they leave. It's karma telling me I need to suffer in silence. Bright side: mom and Ryan might be getting a divorce. Although they've said that for the last 13 years.
Dannie- when I met you I was jealous of you, now I'm broken because of you and I honestly miss you so fucking much but it's cool. I'll move on
Brian- you were my first love, and one of my best friends. I'm going to miss you so fucking much. But it's okay, because like I said, I can't handle anything.
Andy- I...I-I can't say anything for you...too painful...sorry
Ava (Dannies) - I understand why you dont talk to me anymore..
Emmy- I'm sorry I dragged you back into my mess only to hurt you again.
-Alyssa. NOT "Aly"
