The Broken Heart

I'm really fucking struggling

I can't bring myself to fucking eat today. I had a total of 42 calories, 4 from black coffee. I had a rice cake but even those 39 calories have me close to tears. I know I need food. My problem before was "I wanna lose weight" but now it's just "I don't want to gain wait" and "I can't stop this" I don't know what to do. I'm so fucking alone.