Hey guys. Long time no update. So recently life has been majorly shit. To prove that, guess what I did today? That's right! I got discharged from another mental hospital. Basically what happened was I tried to kill myself but my therapist didn't care. No, she cared because I was, at that point, a 5ft 3in 17 year old who weighed........... *Drum roll please* ............
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81 pounds!
That's right. I completely starved myself. So instead of dealing with my depression and suicidal ideation, I went to an eating disorder clinic. I was OFFICIALLY diagnosed with
Anorexia nervosa- binge/purge subtype
And major depressive disorder.
Because I went to the unit voluntarily and am 17 years old, I discharged myself after 9 days. My legal guardians were not happy about that and have proven it by yelling at me at any chance they get. Unfortunately, if I don't follow my meal plan, and gain weight by my weigh in, I'll be hospitalized again. That means I cantf even fucking relapse and lose back the 3 pounds I gained from eating 6 times a day for 9 weeks. And since they did nothing about me being suicidal, I still want to die. Anyways, that's what's new with me. Also I'm not on meds and the clinic didn't help me so fuck off.
-Elliott =^.^=
