We Write for Fear of Silence

Eres mi Sol, mi Luna, y Todas mis Estrellas

I see you standing across the room from me and your eyes are shining, like crystal orbs illuminating my heart as you laugh about something a girl with fiery hair has whispered to you behind her hand, which is pressed to your ear- you are always so beautiful when you laugh, like art come to life, and I never want to stop looking at you because the longer I admire the masterpiece that is you the more of you I find to love, you are a never ending story and I don't want to get to the last page anyway because that would mean my time with you was over and I never want it to end and I want to be a part of your story, I want to be well loved pages, tucked away in your heart- I know you have already turned my story from dreary to dazzling and I will never find anyone with a smile like yours, who's eyes light up the way yours do or who's voice goes so soft when you say that you love me and it makes me melt, I never feel happier than when I am in your arms and I could be on the other side of the world as long as I know you are in it and that you are smiling somewhere, but if I'm being completely honest I don't want to be anywhere without you and I want to see the world with you, even though I would probably ignore most of it because nothing compares to how beautiful you are, to how you make me laugh and always make me laugh and I would so much rather be holding your hand than anything else because the way you look at me is electric and sweet all at once and no one has ever made me feel this way and no one else ever could- I have been waiting for as long as I can remember to find someone who can make my face light up just at the thought of them and it's you, it's you, it's you and your voice is the one I think of before I go to sleep at night and I imagine you laughing whenever I see something funny and when I paint I always find myself wanting to paint the contours of your face and more specifically your eyes, but then I remember that it is absolutely impossible to capture the essence of who you are on canvas and that my love for you couldn't possibly be expressed in something as worldly as a painting and that I want to give you the whole world and all the stars and the moon and even Pluto because I know how much you love Pluto and you deserve so, so much more than a painting, but for now I will write to you, trying to put into words how overwhelming my adoration for you is- who knows where I would be without you and who even wants to know because what is the point in imagining a hypothetical reality so painful- I fell for you wihtout meaning to, and I was writing such a confession in the form I can most purely put my soul into- a poem- the day that you told me you fell for me the same way and I think that was the day I tasted true happines for the first time in years and since then I have found more and more of it and I don't know whether or not to thank you for that or just to tell you how much I love you, I love you, I love you so I think I will do both because on the days when the world feels like it is crumbling around me and I am standing alone amidst a sea of sadness I long to see those eyes of yours and hear your laugh and all is right in the world, and even though people can't fix people you come pretty damn close to making everything all right again and I have never been the best at actually speaking these kind of words but when you fall in love with a writer I suppose it is expected that you will have to read their work to have the truest glimpse into where their heart lies- so I am writing to you in the hopes that this will make you smile because I have never wanted anything more than for you to be happy and I want to make you happy, you are my sun my moon and all my stars and I use every wish I have to ask whoever is listening for me to be able to stay with you forever, for me to be able to keep you by my side and write you love poems, and even though forever is a rather whimsical concept I believe in it because of you and now that I know how it feels to have someone light up my life the way you have I never want to let go of you and I want to hold you when you're sad and dance with you when you are happy and make everything seem better for you in the same way you do that for me, I never want you to doubt how much I love you and I want you to know that to me you represent everything bright and beautiful and good in the world and I want you to go to sleep at night knowing that I love you, I love you, I love you.