Wish Catcher (Completed)

Chapter 46: Admission

Chapter 46: Admission

The hardest part of being honest was not having control of what the aftermath would be. For the past month I've been asking Shone to tell me the truth without even considering how he would feel about it. I questioned him for keeping things from me and I hated him for it. I always asked myself why he lied instead of telling me the whole truth but now I think I know the answer.

Lying is easier than telling the truth. Lying would save the ones you care about from the pain of reality.

But no matter how you put it, lying is wrong.

Tonight I realized that I've been lying to myself about what I really feel for the past weeks. I was pretending not to know how my feelings change and why they did. I was scared to admit that I am falling for someone that wasn't Trace. I was too stubborn to accept the fact that my heart was beating for a different person.

Trace had given me so much tonight but I repaid him with nothing but rejection. As we stood across each other, the silence was unbearable. I'm standing here with my head bent down and my tears falling down to my cheeks as the words of apology echoed in silence.

The wind picked up, and I wish it could wash away the void that's growing between us. I felt bad right now. I felt bad that I gave in to these emotions that I have for Shone. I felt bad about what I said to Trace. He's a great guy and this date just made me realize that he deserves someone better than me. Besides, I am sure that after all of this, my world will be different. I would be leading a life that's dangerous and unsure, and Trace doesn't deserve to be involved with it.

Now that I know who I really am, I'm afraid everything will eventually change.

"I like you since Junior Year." Trace said, his voice low and sad. "I like you ever since." he confessed but I can't make myself look at him.

"T-Trace." I muttered, his admission was overwhelming.

"I was contented on watching you in a distance when you're unaware." he chuckled as if remembering it all. "I was simply happy not until Shone came in the picture." he said which made me look up at him.

I found him looking up at the night sky with a serious look on his face. The wind tossed his hair and his eyes seemed distant. I studied him and there was no trace of anger in his face.

"The first time I saw him with you became a wake up call for me." he turned to me with a smile on his face. "So I asked our school head to transfer me to your section even if we're in the middle of school year already." his face lit up when he grinned at me.

"T-Trace--" I muttered, his confessions continued to overwhelm me.

Maybe this was all hard for him but he's trying to tell everything to me, he's being extra honest and that alone warms heart.

"When Shone became a part of the basketball team, I had the chance to get to know him. When I did, I was surprised by how he seemed to know you so well." he winked at me and chuckled. "You might not know this but he told me stories about you." he grinned again, making me blush.

Does Shone really know me that well?
What stories had he been telling Trace before? I swear if they are embarrassing stories, I'll strangle him to death!

"That's when I realized that he likes you." he smiled and slid his free hand on the pocket of his jeans. "I asked him about it but he told me it wasn't as shallow as like," he bent his head down, not meeting my gaze. "But it's deeper as love." he whispered but it was loud enough for me to hear.

I stood here, in front of him, unable to move. Trace story was affecting me more than it should. I hate myself for not knowing all of this. I hate it that I just came to know this now.