take care

five

Hi,

It was quite a depressing day to be honest. Today was September 5th, aka our friendship anniversary. After everything that has happened between us, it was difficult to pretend today, so simply enough I didn't. It wasn't like the boys were going to suspect the drastic mood change, they all expected me to be upset today.

I told the boys that I wanted to be left alone today, but that didn't stop Harry. He's not-so-officially living with me now. He's cleaning up around the house, buying groceries, and he even started talking about paying rent. 

But anyways, Harry walked through the front door with a bunch of grocery bags in his hands. He found me on the ground next to the bookcase (which by the way, I started reading some of the books El suggested and they're actually pretty good) looking at old photo albums and struggling not to cry. It was actually pretty cute how he reacted. He discarded the bags in his hands and ran towards me. He pulled me onto his lap and started mumbling soothing stuff in my ear and rubbing my back. It was then that I finally started crying. I hadn't cried in over two weeks and I finally thought that I was getting better, but obviously not.

After I calmed down a little (which was about twenty minutes later), Harry went and got some stuff out of the plastic bags. He had gotten chocolate, ice cream, tissues, and a bunch of movies. I guess he had known that I wasn't going to be in the most stable position today.

We spent the rest of the day in the living room. Most of the time I was either sat on his lap or his head was on my shoulder and vise versa. Even on such a bad day like today, Harry made me feel better.

When the final movie was over, Harry and I both reached over for the remote. I started saying I would get it when we both looked at each other. We just stared into each other's eyes. It almost seemed like Harry was leaning in closer to me when my phone buzzed and our awkward moment ended. He awkwardly got up and claimed that he was going to get ready for bed or something like that and left.

I don't know what that was all about but I found it a bit weird... but not necessarily in the bad way.

Well I guess I'll write you later. Harry's probably waiting for me to get to bed. Every night he still cuddles with me, not that I mind or anything. I haven't talked to him about it and I don't think either of us will do anything.

Take Care,

Niall xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

P.S. Sending you lots of love tonight. I really do miss you sooo much.

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A/N Oh my god 500 reads thank you so much! You guys are the best! Today's dedication is for duckiilovesyou66 because I love her story. Literally, Speechless is one of the best fanfics ever (though it is het so sorry if that bothers anyone. I know that she also has a Larry fanfic so check that out too)

Next Posting Date: January 17th. I'm updating early cause I don't have school on Friday and I love you guys ^_^