take care

nineteen

So here's what happened,

It's been three days since "the morning after" and I'm just now getting around to writing to you.

When I finally let Harry in the bathroom with me, he looked sick. He was pale, his hair was a mess, and his cheeks were rosier than usual. I knew that this was just him being nervous though, which was odd. I immediately looked down and realized that Harry didn't have any clothes on. He noticed to and his cheeks flushed with color. He quickly went to the other room to get some pants on and came back.

This was odd for me. Harry had never had a problem being fully nude in front of me, even after our first experience having sex. It felt... awkward knowing that.

Harry and I just stood there for a little bit and then a thought occurred to me which I simply had to ask.

"Harry, are you sure you're not bi?"

Harry sat down on the toilet seat and put his head in his hands and started softly crying. I bent down next to him, rubbing his back.

He started saying that this was all his fault and that he shouldn't have done anything because of how vulnerable I was and blah blah blah. I was extremely confused as to what he was talking about but I just kept nodding my head.

"So... you're not bi?" I asked. I knew the answer, but deep down inside I was hoping that he would say yes.

He slowly shook his head and I nodded mine. What was I thinking? Harry was definitely straight, why would I think differently?

"I'm gay." he said.

I looked at him extremely confused and then it all made sense. When he said he definitely wasn't bi, he wasn't saying that he liked girls, no, he was saying that he liked boys.

"Niall, I'm so sorry. I shouldn't have taken advantage of you like that. I should've explained everything to you first..."

"No, it's fine don't worry. I'm glad that you told me this. Now I won't feel bad for corrupting a straight boy." We both laughed when he asked to take a shower and I let him have his privacy.

After we were both showered and got ready for the day, we agreed to continue as friends and let this just be a little bump in the road. Our friendship was much more important than a silly one night stand... or two for that matter.

But what I'm still confused about, Pen, is why did he sleep with me in the first place? Why didn't either of us do something? I want to know the answers but I'm not man enough to ask him. I wish you were here, you would know what to do.

Take Care,

Niall xxx  

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A/N Surprise update! Ok, so I wasn't going to update today but I got home early from school today (thank you Jack Frost for getting my message about a snow day :P) and I found out that I got 5,000 reads! Thank you so much!!! I think it's only fair that I update. Ok, so the contest closes on February 14th! Get your entries out soon if you want to enter! Today I'm dedicating this to LostAlongTheWay because they guessed it right! The chapter that Narry kissed, Harry said that he definitely wasn't bi, but didn't say what his sexuality actually was. He was the only person who actually said, "Um... Harry's gay betch." (ok, he didn't say that exactly but you still get the point) Other people may have thought it, but I'm almost positive that nobody else actually said that Harry was gay. If you did then sorry!

Next Posting Date: February 14th