take care

twenty nine

Dear Niall's friend,

Hello there. I know you were probably expecting Niall to write you this letter, but sadly he isn't able to. I'm one of Niall's friends, Eleanor. You may have heard of me, I know I've heard a lot about you.

So why am I writing you this letter? Well sadly something very bad has happened to Niall recently. Today is December 13th, and yesterday on the 12th Niall tried to kill himself. Luckily his attempt failed and he is still alive. Right now he's at an emergency room, though he's most likely going to be moved to a mental hospital soon. Louis is there with him, making sure that when he wakes up he has company. I was given the duty to go to his flat and find some clothes for him.

The reason Niall tried to kill himself I don't feel like I should say. These are his letters, and if he wants you to know then he can tell you. I will say this: Harry and Niall got into a very big argument and have broken up.

I don't know what the fuck I'm doing to be honest. I was just looking through his closet and found a journal full of letters and decided to read them. He never told anyone about these letters and just... fuck. I know you're dead, why am I writing to you? We never met! You aren't important in the grand scheme of my life! The only reason I even know you is because of Niall and look at him now!

It was terrible, Penelope. Your name is Penelope, right? I don't know and I don't really care at the moment. I'm too stressed out to worry about a dead girl's name. But honestly, it was horrible. Louis just called me saying that Harry and Niall had broken up so I thought I would go pay Niall a visit. How was I supposed to know how badly he had handled it? I was not expecting to walk into his flat and find him laying in the middle of the kitchen, wrists covered in blood and an empty bottle of pills laying next to him!

He almost didn't make it, you know? The doctor told me that if I had called the hospital any later he would've died. I, technically speaking, saved his life. Honestly? I'm not proud of myself for that. He told me that he was depressed, he told all of us! How could we be so stupid and not do anything about it? Just because he was happier doesn't mean that he was better! We all should've done something! Hell, I should've done something! Looking at all these letters, I was the only one he really talked to!

I suppose I'm writing this just to make myself feel better. Maybe if I put it on paper then this entire situation won't seem so bad. It worked for him, maybe it'll work for me.

Well I need to go. Louis just texted me that Niall had woken up and wants me to be there. I think I'm going to take this journal with me. This seems to be one of Niall's only ways to escape, and I don't want him doing anything else to get that feeling.

Take Care,

Eleanor x

P.S. Niall if you're reading this, I'm so sorry for reading these letters. I know that they're personal and I hadn't even realized what I had gotten myself into until I was done reading everything. Please find it in your heart to forgive me somehow, though I don't expect you to.

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A/N IT'S HERE, IT'S FINALLY HERE! MY FAVORITE CHAPTER OF THIS STORY IS FINALLY HERE!!! Or at least my favorite chapter so far, I have some other nice things planned as well. Did you like it? I worked so hard on this chapter. I really wanted you guys to get someone else's perspective on things. But yeah, please don't hate me for this chapter... Dedicated to NarryBuddy because I love love love her story Stuck With You and because she dedicated a chapter of her book to me! If you're reading this, I love you and thank you so much x

Next Posting Date: April 7th