take care

eleven

I'm not even going to bother putting something creative here because I'm not in the mood,

So today we did the 1DDay announcement. If you don't know what that is, basically we all agreed to do a seven hour livestream for our fans. They deserve it after everything they've done for us and I'm extremely excited!

But anyways, getting back on topic. After the video was posted, we went over to Harry and I's flat to celebrate. I decided now was the time to tell everybody about my sexuality change.

They were saying something when I said, "Oh yeah, I think now would be a good time to mention this. It's not that big of a deal in my opinion, but I figure I might as well tell you: I'm bisexual." Now that was the easy part. They were all supportive and didn't care that I was attracted to both men and women. No, the bad part was when Liam had to ask a certain question.

"How'd you realize that you were bi?"

I bit my lip and looked over at Harry who blushed. The boys looked over at the two of us and finally asked what we were hiding. I raised an eyebrow as if asking his permission to tell them and he just buried his head in his hands. When he finally got up his eyes were bloodshot.

Harry told them that on my birthday we had had a one night stand. I explained that there was nothing sexual in our friendship and we were still friends and that night just made me aware that I was attracted to men. It was quiet at first but then when everything sunk in they got angry.

Louis started yelling at us first for not telling them. Then he felt like an idiot for buying me condoms as a birthday present and I had to hold back a fit of laughter. Liam was scared that we were going to affect our friendship and didn't believe us when we said that we were just going to continue to be friends. Zayn just sat there, shaking his head the whole time.

Louis left fifteen minutes later and Liam followed. Both of them were pissed at us. Zayn walked to the door slowly and when he got there he looked up at us and opened his mouth to say something then closed it. Finally he decided what to say.

"I'm not mad at you guys, I just hope you realize what you've gotten yourself into." He left, leaving the flat to Harry and I.

I wish that the story ended there but sadly it didn't.

Harry and I got into a little bit of a disagreement, but it only lasted for about five minutes. He was mad that I had made him tell them about our sexy night together, but I told him that we would have had to tell them eventually so he let it go. It was then that it became awkward, the sexual tension in the room obvious.

Harry then asked, "Did I really turn you gay?"

I couldn't help but laugh at this. I explained to him that I had already been questioning my sexuality at that point and sleeping with him just made it evident that I was, in fact, attracted to men. He nodded and it was quiet again. We just sat on the couch. Just as I picked up a book (I'm finally starting Hush Hush. Out of all the books El's been trying to get me to read, she's been trying to get me to read these books the most) Harry started speaking again.

"Can I kiss you?" He asked. I felt like I had choked. I was thoroughly confused. Why would he want to kiss me?

"Why?" I mumbled.

He ran a hand through his hair. "I, uh, well you said that you found out that you were bi because you slept with me. I was so drunk that night that I could barely remember anything. Maybe if I kiss you now then I can figure out..."

I was confused but I still found myself slowly nodding my head. I gulped as I found Harry slowly moving towards me.

Harry's kisses are very sweet. He lightly pushed my hair out of my face as he let his soft lips come in contact with mine. He didn't try any funny business, it was a simple kiss. There was no tongue or anything like that but yet somehow it was very... passionate. I could feel Harry's confusion in his kiss and it was almost as if he was letting out his anger towards me with it. He then bit my lip and slid his tongue across it. I was right about to grant him entrance when he backed out. He held my hand and rested his forehead on top of mine, panting.

"Did you, uh, get the answer you were looking for?" I asked, panting slightly. I couldn't help it, that kiss was very passionate.

Harry then got off of me and rubbed the back of his neck turning away from me. He looked liked he had tears in his eyes.

"Um, yeah, definitely not bisexual. Sorry Nialler." He let out a small chuckle, though it sounded forced. He excused himself to the bathroom and here we are now.

I know Harry didn't mean to, but him telling me he wasn't bisexual somehow... hurt. I'm not sure why exactly, but that kiss we shared was great. Was I a bad kisser or something? Oh I hope not! Ugh, why is everything getting so complicated?

Take Care,

Niall

P.S. Can't give you any kisses, I'm still getting over that one with Harry.

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A/N Yay, first chapter that's two pages!!! Well we got some Narry action in this chapter, though the rest of the boys are mad at them (excluding Zayn, he's just disappointed). Question: Which cover do you like more, this one or the one I had before? I personally like the first one better, but I wanted to give you guys the option to choose. Today I'm dedicating this chapter to iloveNialler_18 because I loved their comment ^_^

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