Fix A Heart: A One Direction Fanfic

Experimentation

Leanne's POV:

My thoughts of experimentation with Liam was starting to catch up with me. Am i even ready to start up with the bullshit from my old life? I mean honestly, i did come to London to stop all that shit. Yet here i am telling Liam i will do these things with him. Is it even a good idea?

I cant help my thoughts from being cloudy so I take moment to breathe and take it all in. Maybe i need a release. I mean honestly what is the big deal. I scratch at the leather steering wheel as these thoughts swirl inside my mind. What if Simon finds out. He would kill me. A voice in the back of my mind says 

"Screw him, your old enough." 

Its like my mind is telling me one thing but yet my heart cant bare to agree. I think Liam notices my stress because he has been looking at me for a few minutes. 

"We should be there in about 5 minutes" I glance at the black GPS system on the dash board. I guess we aren't going far from home because the drive wasn't very long.  Mariah informed me that it's like a spa and amusement park but I shouldn't be fooled because there are some fun "adult" things to do in town. 

"wake up loosers." I turn off the car and let myself out. But of course the boys are forced to get all the bags. 

The minute we check in we are given hotel room keys. And it honestly feels good to see me and Louis will have a room to ourselves. 

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The minute we have unpacked we decide its time to hit up the amusement park. I put on a pair of classic black and white low top converse, skinny jeans, and a Hollister sweatshirt. Simple yet i look surprisingly nice.

"Ready?" Louis grabs my hand as i slip my self phone into the tight pocket of my skinny jeans. 

"Yeah."

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We quickly arrive at the amusement park and the smell of cotton candy, popcorn, and corn dogs fills my nose and it smells great. The last time I went to one of these i was in the 8th grade. I had my first kiss with Blake Martin and i thought i was so cool. Kissing boys behind snack bars is cool... when your 13 going on 14. Then it turns into having sex behind that same snack bar. Blake took my virginity. he was my first boyfriend. Good times. 

The thoughts of my life before my slut of a mom cheated and ruined my life cause a small smile to grow on my lips. 

"What are you smiling about?" Louis asks as i stick my hand in a dirty glass window to get a yellow wrist band stating i paid to go on the rides and play the games.

"Nothing. Im just glad to be getting away from home, it feels nice." Louis' thumb traces circles on the  back of my hand as he holds it, and it these little things he does that makes me that much more deeply in love with him.