I Will Find You This Time (REVISING)

Chapter 3~

Anabelle 

Dito na ako natulog sa mansion nila. I'd like to spend time with her like how it was 12 years ago bago sila bumalik sa Canada for good. I fixed her room na tutuluyan niya making sure no traces of her past life remains.

Yan ang utos sa'kin.

Kung ako masusunod, gugustuhin ko rin na hindi na siya makaalaala. Even for me nakakatraumatise ang mga hindi masamang bagay na dumating sa pamilya nila.

Kung ang best friend ko sobrang nasaktan nun, ako naman nasasaktan para sa kanya--at hangang ngayon nasasaktan pa rin ako sa tuwing nakikita ko siya. Dahil kung nakalimutan man ng isip niya, alam ko naaalala ng puso niya.

Hindi nakakalimot ang puso.

Nagiguilty na rin kasi ito siya, buo ang tiwala sa'kin na tutulungan ko siya bumalik ang mga alaala niya, pero ako naman tong nagtatago at nilalayo ang mga bagay na dapat niyang maalaala. 

Don't label us as the villains here, what can we do? Mahal namin siya and the last thing we want is for her to fall into that deep pit of darkness again.

Twice was enough. Never again.

She's like a sister I never had. We grew up together. Since babies, hindi na kami pinaghihiwalay. Ayoko rin naman mahiwalay sa kanya at ganun rin siya.

Our mothers may not be best friends but our families are close enough to be called more than family friends.

Everyday with her is like a new day. New beginning. She changed definitely. Pero it was the pain and the trauma that made her change. Nakikita namin lahat gaano kadali mag bago ang mga expression ng mga mata niya. 

One second her eyes reflect the happiness she feels on the inside then the next she radiates sadness. Pure sadness na para bang ang puso niya umiiyak na naman sa sakit na hindi alam ng isip niya kung saan galing ang sakit. 

Mas mabuti na to. She may have changed but she's still the same on the inside. May mga bagay na ginagawa pa rin niya--old habits die hard nga sabi nila. She doesn't know this and we don't plan on telling her anything. 

Call us paranoid basta natatakot lang kami. 

"I kinda expected it from you", sabi ng bff ko. Nabalik ang attensyon ko sa realidad. 

I surprised her with the news that I am also going to the same school as her!

"What?! Seryoso?! And I've been trying hard to control myself na hindi sabihin agad sa'yo para masurprise ka!" I pouted. Nag effort pa ako diba?

She pinched my cheeks, "Girl. Of course, diba ang mag best friends hindi nag hihiwalay? Tsaka like I said, kilala na kita kaya I expected this from you" I smiled wide

She knows me now. Kilala na niya ako at mga galaw ko. Big improvement. I'm touched. 

"And come on, would you really let me be alone in a new school? With people who I don't know?" she challenged habang nakataas ang kilay niya

Of course not. I was given specific instructions na hindi ko siya pababayaan. And kahit na hindi ako pagsabihan nila tita at lola, I'd still protect my best friend.

Baka mawala pa siya ng tuluyan. I can't deal with that. Not again.

"Ewan ko sa'yo!" I hugged her, "But seriously, I'll accompany you of course! Mahirap na no, it's such a prestigious school, for sure madaming bitches. I'll fight them for you, nako wag silang ano...."

She laughed and hugged me back, "Sure ka? Baka talaga ang rason mo is that the school is full of handsome and cute boys--" grabe tong babaeng to!