Flicker, Fade ⧫ Kellic / Ryden / Jardougall / Jalex

7 :: crickets throw their voice

[february 6th]

: i cut my toe open and my period decided to show up today you have never seen so much blood in this house as there was today. is it bad that i've dyed my hair twice since i've updated this? it hasn't even been that long i'm just either bad at updating or bad at dying my hair.

ANYWAYS. this song is crickets throw their voice by basement i love basement there's a lot of basement in this chapter. try to enjoy, i suppose. ALSDSJK also i am so gay for tay jardine and so is jenna i had so much FUN with this chapter please enjoy okay

i'm counting down the days

till i see you next

i still compare everything

to your silhouette

how can i forget what is perfect?

Jenna McDougall was the kind of person who always had too many emails stacked up in her inbox that warned her about every single band coming to or near the Bay Area. And though she never deleted them even though no she did not want to see Earth, Wind, and Fire, she supposed that they were still helpful because she had a job because of the emails and went to lots and lots of concerts. 

Well, it wasn't uncommon to have a job. Jenna just was very diligent about hers because without the job she wouldn't have any money for concert tickets and concert tickets were the things that really mattered in life. Jenna valued her job working at Trader Joe's very highly, and had also valued the two tickets she had just bought to a Basement show. She always bought two because going to concerts alone was shit, but her designated concert friend had left so now she would have to find someone else.

Jenna's first concert had been a The Amity Affliction concert. She had been ten years old, and had been brought with her older sister and her friends. None of them really even liked the band that they were seeing, but the three older girls that had dragged Jenna along with them were desperate to see anyone live. Jenna's parents had gone on a weekend trip and had trusted Jenna's older sister, Andrea, to babysit her little sister. However, that hadn't happened. The three girls, including the ten year old Jenna, had ended up at a metal show that Jenna's parents would definitely not consider safe.

The best concert she had been to was Green Day, which she had gone to with her designated concert friend, Hayley. Hayley had been Jenna's roommate all through high school up until the previous May where she had announced that she was leaving. It had all happened too fast,  but now the memory of Hayley was ruined, and Jenna was just waiting to see if Tay Jardine would soon be another memory.

Jenna liked Tay. A lot. It was sort of sad, seeing as they lived together and never had conversations that added anything of substance to either of their lives, and Jenna found herself wishing almost all the time that friendships didn't need to start out with any kind of awkwardness; that people could just instantly become friends.

Then there was the problem that Tay Jardine was also kind of hot and had a really fucking sexy voice and Jenna was having a little trouble living with someone she found so damn hot, but she told herself that she would have to deal with it, ultimately assumed Tay was straight, and continued on with her daily life. Except Tay was not straight, which was not something that Jenna was aware of. 

Jenna was bisexual and not proud of it at all. When people asked, she told them she was straight not just because it was easier, there was also the reason that she had only dated boys but still found some girls really incredibly sexy, and did not consider that a thing that straight girls felt. She had sort of shagged a girl, but she wasn't exactly sure exactly what that had been, but that was beside the point, the social justice warriors of the LGBT+ community had decided that the "B" meant nothing and that if you were a bisexual female and had a preference for girls then you were a lesbian, and if you and had a preference for guys then you were straight.