Flicker, Fade ⧫ Kellic / Ryden / Jardougall / Jalex

12 :: feels like coming home

[march 14th]

: it's pi day and i made a kickass pumpkin pie to celebrate. i'm happy. i literally only have two chapters left to write of this before i finish and though i thought that i wouldn't want to, i'm realizing that i do have to let go of this at some point. the ideas aren't all that original and i've got a lot more fics to work on. i love this thing, but i think i'm finally okay with the prospect of ending it.

this song is feels like coming home by jetta and it is not rock or anything at all i've got no idea how i found it but it's really good and she's got a really nice voice so here. have some lyrics. try to enjoy, i suppose. 

this i know

right from the start

like it's the first time

it finally feels like coming home

It was the week of Thanksgiving. Which meant no school. Which was good and bad at the same time, because sometimes a distraction from stressful work was much needed, but sometimes too much free time was taken with that measure, which wasn't always a good thing.

Vic Fuentes took his free time to think about finding his way back to Under the Sun. Like the rest of his old friends, he had enjoyed spending time at the record store, doing work there, getting advice from actual adults, and honestly just hanging out and enjoying himself. Being there hadn't been bad but everything else had and along with cutting all of his friends out of his life, Under the Sun had got to go too, of course, because anything that he enjoyed obviously was going to do some sort of harm to Jaime in the long run. Vic had stopped questioning it in the end because the more he questioned, the tighter Jaime's grip on him became. Giving up had never been easier.

Over the course of the past three days, Kellin had spoken less and less about anything at all and had just done his work for the break while Vic lay around and stalked his old friends' social media accounts. It was when he had seen too many happy photos of people he hadn't been able to laugh with in too long, he decided to talk to Kellin about them.

"Have you been to Under the Sun?" If he was friends with Jack, which he was, then he must have been because Gee always liked meeting new people and there was no way that she wasn't going to get to meet the new kids and Kellin was new and he just, god, Vic missed all of them so badly.

"Yeah." Kellin was sitting on his couch, it had sort of been designated as his own at this point because Vic was fairly certain that he hadn't so much as touched his bed since he had arrived there, and was attempting to complete a chemistry review sheet that he was obviously clueless about.

"All the same people are there? Gee and Frank and Patrick and-"

"Pete. Yeah." It wasn't like Kellin had wanted to make enthusiastic conversation before, but at least he had tried. Before, there had been something in his voice, and he had been all nervous and shaky and now it was just like there was just nothing.

"I'm going to go there." Vic announced, as if Kellin actually cared, which he might've if he knew why it was that important to Vic, or if he even felt like being alive and having enough energy to participate in a conversation.

"Great." Of course. Vic was hesitantly debating voicing the "did something happen?" question that he wasn't going to get a direct answer to, but things seemed sort of awkward after they had gone through their little Q&A session which neither of them had enjoyed and then again Vic kept looking too long at Kellin and focusing on his features and just thinking about him and jesus he had just spent the past few days crying over the relationship that he had just gotten out of and there was no way that he could like Kellin in that way.