I don't do thugs(BOOK 1 & 2)

CH.4 CHANGES

~ I loved the way his colon smelled every time he hugged me with them full arms I felt safe I wish I could feel like that again but the past is the best and I can only until control my future not the past~

Thoughts came back to my head I feel like I think about the memories and him everyday is that bad to be holding on to the past my life may not have been as hard as his but I believe that it is time that me and him discuss I would love for him to see his kids I know they will be very excited when I decide to tell him but the big step is to be done now, to make the phone call

*Dialing*

"Jenna?"

"Um. Hi August can I stop by your crib?"

"Sure Wassuh?"

"We need to talk and I'm going to bring the kids so they can see you again"

"Cool cool I'll see ya"

"Yeah bye"

"Bye"

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"August are you gonna hang up?"

"Why didn't you hang up then?"

"I don't know, I guess I was waiting on you to hang up"

"Oh well bye again"

"Bye"

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I decided to hang up I wasn't bout to go through this with him again I walked up my steps to my babies room and they was watching Blues Clues that's my bitch(Blue is a girl guys) they ran up to me yelling we watching blues clues I feel like I don't discipline them enough but these are kids so I raise them how I want

"Y'all wanna go see Daddy?"

"YESSS"

"YESSS"

They both yelled while jumping up and down I knew they was going to be happy they missed him as much as I did ha

"Okay put y'all shoes on and we can leave"

"Yes mommy"

They said at the same time it took them only for 4 minutes for them both to put on their shoes I buckled them up in the booster seats and drove down old memory lane the event of where it all went wrong came to my head once again but I forced a smile on my face

"Stwopp it Markweal"

"I'm not Evan twouching you"

"MARKEL AND DANIELLE YALL BETTA STOP RIGHT NOW"

"Yes mommy"

I pulled in the drive way something I use to do all the time I felt un easy and nervous of what would happen if the events happened again I knocked on the door and he answered with just basketball shorts on I but my lip hoping he wouldn't see me I forgot about the 8 pack and those tattoos that traced every part of his skin the kids rushed to him and hugged his legs "Y'all room is still in the same place y'all go up y'all room" "Otay daddy"

He looked at me and I looked back up at him we was looking in each souls it seemed like I could see his soul he was.... Hurting
just like I am right now but why was there pain in his soul

(AUGUST):

I stared at her for a minute until my eyes got deeper into her she was passionate about something but she was also suffering had I caused her distress I felt so bad I pulled her into a hug I kissed her the warmth of her lips calmed me I picked her up and in motion she wrapped her legs around my waist I sat down on the couch as she was in my lap not breaking the kiss it ended shortly after so we could catch our breath

"I missed babygirl"

"I missed you too"

"I'm really sorry I put you through so much I did-"

"I'm sorry to we both just wasn't right"

"I stopped drinking"

"I'm really glad that you did"

"But do you wanna talk about?"

"About the kids August I would love for you to be in there life again and they would love it too so I was thinking maybe we could use some days or weeks"

"What do you mean by that?"

"I wanted to know if you would like them for 2 weeks each month"

"You won't miss them?"

"I'll miss them so much but they miss you more than I'll miss them"

"Are you sure?"

"I'm positive"

"Okay how about we start next month?"

"That sounds good"

"Jenna?"

"Yes August Alsina?"

"*laughs*I would like to start over please"

"Start over? Oh August I don't know"

She said I don't know but she knew that she wanted me back and I wanted her back we like Lucious and Cookie we will always fall back in love

"Okay okay I do wanna be with you but I wanna go slow"

"How slow do you mean?"

"You say you want to start over we will were are going to be friends first"

"Are you serious"

"You did say you want to start over could of said left off from where we stopped*laughs*"

"Man you playing*chuckles*"

"I'm letting my kids spend the night with you okay I didn't take all they clothes some more are in the back of your closet"

"You mean OUR kids are spending the night cool they will be fine you know their in good hand"

"That's what I'm worried about I'm leaving them with but I have to go goodbye"

"Bye"

"BYE BABIES MOMMY LOVES YALL BE GOOD FOR DADDY"

And she left I knew where she was going she is not slick she was going to see Trevor the streets had already informed me she better not go and sleep with ole dude or that's his and her ass

I'm going to do a contest y'all I will pick two people to be in my Instagram and I will randomly chose send a description of yourself and we'll go from there good luck fellow readers much love to you all ~Syd🌚