I don't do thugs(BOOK 1 & 2)

CH.7 CHANGES

~I finally recognized the feeling I got for ya I came and talked to you but homie interfered now He introduced you as his girl and was heartbroken Some people talk about that love at first sight shit To keep it real I don't know whether I believe it's true But if it is than tell me if I'm wrong or right I fell in love with you before I ever even knew~

I liked ha way before anyone knew way before she got with August way before she even knew me buh she thinks of me as a brother yeah if I could take the past and start over made I could of tried and talked to her first before I talked to Diamond

"JORDAN JORDAN JORDAN"

"Huh?"

"You zoned out again"

"Oh my b, you needed sum?"

"You zone out to much what you be thinking about"

"I don't remember"

"HOW THE FUCK YOU DONT REMEMBER IT WAS JUST A SECOND AGO"

"I JUST DONT REMEMBER DIAMOND"

She stared at me for like 5 minutes she was studied me Diamond was clever as fuck if she knew something was wrong she would try to find out a tear slid down her face what was wrong with her now "Why are you crying" I tried to pull her in a hug but she pushed me away and hid her face the crying eventually stopped and she turned to face me with her arms crossed

"Why didn't you tell me"

"What are yo-"

"WHY DIDNT YOU TELL ME"

"TELL YOU WHAT"

"THAT YOU FUCKING LOVE SOMEONE ELSE I CAN SEE IT IN YOUR EYES"

I was silent I looked down I wouldn't wanna lie to her it was soon that she would find out it's not like I don't love her any less

"TELL ME WHO SHE IS"

I didn't answer again would she really wanna know that I love her best friend..

"WOW you can't even tell me"

If I ever had a chance with Jenna I would take it any day she was the most passionate person that always made me laugh every time I was around her

*Beep beep*

I felt like I had that same dream every night Jordan would never betray me like that he loved me I looked to the other side of the bed and he was up getting ready

"Where you going?"

"I got a job to do"

"Be safe please"

"Always"

And he walked out the house I looked at the ceiling I feel like the magic is gone we hardly communicate he has been doing jobs a lot more lately I sighed and rubbed my hands through my relaxed hair was I doing something wrong were post to get married were having a child I even postponed the wedding to see if we was okay but we're still growing maybe it's to much maybe I'm going to fast it seems like he probably has cold feet yeah that's what it is that's why he's acting different

*sigh* I talk about August having a drinking problem I'm just as worse as him when I get a type of way I drink just like he does but I hadn't had a drink in so long I needed a relief every once ha I thought about the time me and August went fishing together

~Flashback

"I like this"

"You like what?"

"How were in a boat in the middle of a lake and you not selling right now it's nice"

"How ya know I'm not selling I'm selling to the fish I got them on that gas *laughs*"