~If my heart stop pumping tomorrow don't feel no sorrow
Cause life is hard mentally
And everything is meant to be
Sometimes I ask myself if I was gone who would remember me?
It's hard to tell Now lately it's been hard to tell my friends part from my enemies Cause plenty niggas show me love but in their hearts they envy me why~
It's been a long time I guess I just miss the old days yeah I really do miss them just sitting at the table thinking about the conversation we were going to have was nerve racking but we need to have this discussion I couldn't look him in the eyes if I didn't think to tell him
"Hey babe wassuh with you"
"We need to talk Alex"
"About?"
I could tell he had an attitude by how he said about Alex never liked talking about anything especially when it came to talking to me
"I was thinking I should get a job"
"No"
"Why Alex I want to have legal money in this house too"
"I SAID NO DESTINY DAMN YOU DONT NEED TO WORK"
He started to walk away I quickly followed him and protested about the job again I really want this
"ALEX ALEX ALEX"
He stopped and turned around I sighed Alex was violent when he was anger I could see his jaw clenching I felt as if how much it clenched it would fall off steam looked like it was in the air I started breathing fast from how nervous I was of what his next move might be
"I said no Destiny WHY YOU DONT FUCKING LISTEN I KNOW YOU CAN UNDERSTAND ENGLISH WHY YOU CANT FUCKING DROP IT *Slams door* "
I tried to follow him into the room but he locked the door next thing I know he started throwing shit around the room he does this every time I can't take it no more he needs to get over him self I'll be with him til the wheels fall off but you don't need to shut me out completely and then have a tantrum
"ALEX IM NOT ABOUT TO DO THIS WITH YOU TODAY"
...
Now he's ignoring wow he's acting like a child I feel like his mom no when I met him I wanted something real he put me through all that shit in the past I still stuck by him now I have to deal with this hell no I'm not doing this shit not today not tomorrow I'm done
"Alex I can't do this no more you're being childish I guess what I'm saying is I'm leaving you"
...
He didn't even say anything I got a safety pin and unlocked the door he was on the floor with an empty bottle in his hand he slump ha I'm not surprised I checked his pulse to make sure he was still breathing and he was I packed my stuff I was leaving him it's to much everyday I wrote a note so it wouldn't be as rude
Dear Alex,
This is the same routine everyday
I'm sick of it we have truly grown
apart as much as I hate to do this
I have left I can't take it no more
The years we spent together has
Been amazing but our story might
End here I love you Alex but
Our love has failed we will meet
Again in the future my first love
~Destiny
It was time to make a start for myself and worry about me and nobody else time to take a wonderful journey through the world solo
~Without love what do we have I'm starting to think I might just be in love with a shell of your former self you're not even the same no more and I think you're only in love with yourself but I want you to know I think you're selfish and not worth the time cause I tried I really tried to make it work this time~
I get called all sorts of things ha it's really funny how bitches want me to entertain them cause I'm such a hoe they *laughs* they might be right since August wanted to leave me and demanded a paternity test for my baby that is what he's gonna get oh right I will them to make sure the test say he is the father since my bitch Sharon work up here
"Sharon I need a favor please"
"What do you want Leeya?"
She spoke with annoyance I will beat her ass and make a scene at her job if she would like but no I need this favor real quick to win August back
"I would like for you to do a false paternity test when August Alsina comes in make sure to say the baby is his"
"Oh no girl you could go to court"
"He's not gonna send me to court he loves me"
"Leeya here take this card"
"What is this?"
"It's for therapy first visit is free go to the session and I'll think about the test"
"I DONT NEED THERAPY"
"Leeya you need to go for your son"
"I don't give a DAMN ABOUT THAT BABY"
"Leave my job right now"
"I AINT MOTHER FUCKING LEAVING NO WHERE"
"SECURITY"
The officers pulled me out the clinic I'm not crazy trying to make me go to therapy I don't need help I just WANT AUGUST BACK"
~Ease the pain with a few drinks I ease my pain this way I might even hurt my self on the inside but I feel good when the buzz hit even if it cost me losing the one I love~
Once I woke up my head was pounding and I had an empty bottle in my hand damn I must really been pissed "DESTINY" "DESTINY" "DESTINY" I knew she heard me I pulled myself off the floor and walked to the kitchen damn I was outta alcohol of course I drunk everyday since Destiny always have me stressed I don't know why she wanna work I'm the man of the house I'm the only one that should provide for the mother fucking house I called her name again she still didn't respond where the fuck she at I walked to door to look outside if her car was out there and there was a note on the door I read it "no no no no" I know she didn't leave me man I sat down on the couch and put my face in my palms "Why she wanna leave me man?" I was hurt like a bitch but the question was what did I do wrong?
Leeya still plotting mhm
Do Alex have a problem?
Is it the end of Alex and Destiny?
Should Destiny have left?
Should Leeya go to therapy?
Where Leeya baby at?
YOU ARE READING
I don't do thugs(BOOK 1 & 2)
ФанфикJenna: Her mom left her at the age of 3 she is mixed with Puerto Rican and black she is 5'4 she has curly hair that reaches to her back she is 16 in high-school at Compton high and she doesn't do thugs even though she is a thugs daughter August: He...
