Living With My Bully

Chapter 27

I glanced over at Louis quickly, he was in pain but nothing to serious. I took a deep breath before walking up to him. I stook out my hand, he hasitantly took it and I helped him up. "C-can we t-talk?" I asked a bit shakingly. I'm not going to lie. I was extremely scared. He slowly nodded and followed me into the kitchen.

"Autmun, I'm sorry. I should never have hit you. I have four sisters and I don't know how I could ever have hit a girl. The only thing I can say is I'm really, really sor-" I cut him off. "It's okay Louis." I took a deep breath. "I'm used to it..." I whispered, secretly hoping he didn't hear it. I looked up at him to see how ashamed he looked. "W-what do you mean?" He asked shakingly. "I don't even know where to start Louis..." I whispered. He looked around and sighed. With his last strength he picked me up and put me on the counter, he sat on the 'island' in front of me and I just stared at the ground. "Start from the beginning." He said, his voice suddenly sounding soft and sweet.

"I used to have a brother named Mike... He was my best friend and I loved him more than anything. He'd be there for me when I got bullied or just felt sad... My dad was always harsh on him, I don't know why but he was... Mike was only three years older than me but he'd act like my dad, always protecting me. When my dad got fired from his job he drank, not alot though. One time when I came home from school I heard my dad and brother yell at eachother. They had this huge fight and my dad started beating up Mike as usual..." I took a deep breath before continuing.

"It was raining that day... Mike got all his strength and pushed my dad off of him. He ran out of the house and got into the car, speeding off to who knows where. He crashed that night... He didn't see the truck coming and once he did he couldn't stop the car anymore. He died instantly, he broke his neck and spine in 6 places..." The tears in my eyes stung like crazy but I decided to continue.

"My dad started drinking more after that. It all started with calling names. Sure it hurt but since it happened at school too it didn't bother me as much as it could've. One night he got drunk and we had a fight. I called him a pathetic drunk and he slammed me into the wall before beating me up. I didn't tell my mom since I thought he was just drunk..." A couple tears slid down my cheeks but I still didn't dare to look up.

"Then it happened again when he was sober but this time I was to scared to tell my mom. He beat me up worse and worse until I got into the hospital. My mom was on a buisness trip and emediatly came to the hospital I was in.... So I told her everything..." I whispered and waited a while for the lump in my throat to become smaller before going on.

"She confronted him... He never even denied it. He looked proud he did it and told my mom it was to 'show me a lesson and punishing me for being such a whore and a slut.. a wast of space etc,' My mom got angry and started yelling at him... so he started to beat her up. From that moment we were beaten up almost everyday and one day my mom got scared so when my dad wasn't home she sent me to live with Anne... but she stayed..." I took a deep breath.

"My mom killed herself a month ago..." I whispered, finishing of my story. I finally looked up at Louis. He looked shocked and speachless. "Autumn, I'm sorry... I'm so sorry for ever hurting you... All your life you've been through so much pain... I should never have been this mean to you... It's just... I never really was that mean to you before because I really liked you and than I heard you had sex with Justin and my heart broke." He whispered the last part about his heart breaking. "I never had sex with Justin...." I whispered and he looked at me wide eyed. "Harry had been calling me for a while and Justin wanted him to stop calling. He lied." I whispered, only now realising Louis had never asked my side of the story, he just asumed that what Harry said was right.

Louis rested a hand on my leg. "I'm so sorry I should've listened to you..." He whispered and I took his hand off of my leg. "You're right Louis. But you didn't because you don't trust me." I snapped, my voice coming out way louder than it was suposed to come out. "Autum, I-"

"You know what? Save it Louis." I snapped before walking out of the kitchen.