We Belong

• 14

Lani,

"Lani I'm not fuckin playing with you, where the fuck are you at?" Chris yelled into the phone but I really wasn't paying him no mind. I was too busy writing song lyrics. I was able to get myself some studio time, If he could pursue his dream so could I. "Lani?" He yelled knocking me out my daze.

"Yea, what?" I said putting my pen down. I heard him sigh loudly.

"I have a fuckin meeting in a hour. Come get the twins or tell me where you at so I can drop them off." He said clearly tying not to yell.

"No. I told you this already. I am not doing any favors for you! Fuck you Chris, if you could fix your mouth to say the shit you said last night then you dont need me!" I yelled fighting back tears.

"Baby I didn't me-" I hung up the phone before he could finish speaking. I didn't need to hear the lies. I know what he said to me. I let the tears fall going back to my paper.

I drove for miles 
Just to find
You and find myself
All these screams
All these voices
In my head
You gave me strength
Gave me hope
For a lifetime
I never was satisfied
This time won't you save me
This time won't you save me
Baby I can feel myself givin up
Givin up
This time won't you save me
This time won't you save me
Baby I can feel myself givin up
Givin up
It's not your fault
I'm a bitch
I'm a monster
Yes I'm a beast
And I feast
When I conquer
But I'm alone
On my throne
All these riches
I came this way
All this way
Just to say hey
This time won't you save me
This time won't you save me
Baby I can feel myself givin up
Givin up
This time won't you save me
This time won't you save me
Baby I can feel myself givin up
Givin up
I'm givin up baby
I'm givin up baby
(feels like I've been driven for miles)
I'm givin up baby
(and I can't seem to silence these voices in my head)
This time won't you save me
(please save me)
This time won't you save me
(please save me)
This time won't you save me
This time won't you save me
Baby I can feel myself givin up
Givin up
This time won't you save me
This time won't you save me
Baby I can feel myself givin up
Givin up

I put the pencil down and out my face in my hands. I did need Chris, I just didn't want to admit it to myself.

Chris,

"You amd Lani trippin..." Redd said after I finished telling him and Ty what was going on. Ty shook his head shrugging.

"What the fuck you say that shit to her for anyway? We all know Lani take care of her kids so you fucked up. You don't tell the mother of your kids that shit." He said taking a drag on the blunt.

"Don't you think I know that?" I snapped as he passed it to me. I slowly dragged on it then blew smoke out my nose.

"I'm just saying man, you was dead ass wrong. Lani do way too much for you and respect you way too much for you to ever disrespect her that way. She crazy over yo dumbass." He said and I handed Mijo the blunt getting up and going in the house to check on the twins.

They were both in their cribs sleeping still thankfully. I went back on the porch with Ty and Redd.

"She stopped answering my calls.. she haven't even asked about the twins." I said shaking my head. I knew what I said to Lani was wrong but my pride was standing in the way of me apologizing.

"She need some time man, you better hope she come back to yo ass." Redd said chuckling. Even though I knew he was playing it still pissed me off to think about Lani with a different nigga. It wouldn't end well for they ass.

"Whatever, she made me miss an important ass meeting. I can't get shit done because she won't watch the kids. I was supposed to be in the studio today." I complained.

"Bring them with you, people do it all the time stop making excuses." Ty said. Since when this mutha fucka get smart.

"Maybe tomorrow. I'm not in the mood anymore today." I said passing the blunt.

"Man come on, you can't slack before we make it to the top." Ty urged and I sighed.

"Alright. But only for a few hours I ain't tryna have the twins out all night.

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Chris is feeling guilty!
Is Lani gonna move on?
She's making music 😍
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