Jerk

chapter twenty nine

while i was driving kian was on his phone. he had the aux, we were singing along to whatever song came on.

but the whole time i was thinking about how much things i have caused or been involved with. jack and i have broken up so many times i just don't know if this is gonna last. i think him and madison might hit it off.

me on the other hand, i am apparently a liar and a cheater. but hey do i care what people think? no. kian saw that i zoned out so he paused the music. "hey that was my song!" i said. "you weren't even listening to the music" he said. "i was" i said.

"what's going on in the head of yours jenn?" kian said poking my head. "you know about what's going on and how maybe jack is actually done with the relationship. and how i lost my bestfriend maybe both bc matt hasn't even talked to me." i said turning into our driveway.

i park and get out walking to the other side to help kian, i take his crutches and his other things so he has enough space to get out. once he's out he holds onto me and i hand him his crutches.

kian walks towards the door, i follow behind. i open the door and let him in then locked it. "what do you wanna do?" i asked.

"im gonna take a nap if that's okay?" he said. "i nodded. i help up the stairs once he's at the top i accidentally messed a step. "ughh that hurt !" i fake cried. kian laughs and tries to help me up but i get up myself just incase he falls.

"ill be in my room if you need anything, just call me or tell my name." i said covering him up. "okay mom. can you check under my bed if there's any monsters" he laughs. "no bc im scared what if there is a monster boy your in your own! byeeee" i said leaving.

once i get in my room i go to my closet. i change into my black nike spandex with a oversized gray shirt. i grab some fuzzy socks and put them on. then i put my hair into a messy bun.

i get in my bed, plugging my phone into the charger and grabbing my mac book. as i do some online shopping i see a notification pop on my phone.

"Jack Gilinsky just posted a photo." i open it to see him hugging madison. he looked happy. i set my phone down and continued shopping.

after that i started watching netflix. i decided to take a picture. after taking so many pictures i finally picked one.

i wanted to post it on instagram. decided to caption it, "maybe your happiness was a lie. maybe "we" weren't meant to be. maybe you found the one." i post it.

soon after 5 minutes i was at 600,567 likes. damn. i look to see that matthew, jack, johnson, liked and commented.

@jackj: "wow your beautiful, i miss you text me fam❤"
@matthewespinosa: "go bestfriend that's my bestfriend 😻"
@jackgilinsky: maybe it'll be us who end up together. 😍😍😍 wow babe ❤

i roll my eyes at jacks comment. he's not going to do this to me. im not going to let him hurt me. im not going to believe what he says. so i decided to delete the comment.

automatically i regret deleting it bc a fan account quickly posted it. i turn my phone off and turned my computer off. i need a nap.

after my long nap i checked the time it was 5:47 pm. as i was stretching i feel something hard on the other side of my bed. i quickly get up and pull the covers off.

it was jack. i hit him with a pillow to wake him up. "what the actual fuck jack. get out now!" i yelled. "aw my nose, your hurt my nose and lips can you kiss it." he said. "i don't care get out! and now i will not get your side bitch to do it. im not going to be your second choice jack. im done with this arguing and breaking up every time. and if you don't remember you called me the liar and cheater. every single time we have broken up its all because of you! what have i ever done to deserve this? i freaking loved you! don't come crying back to me jack. i've had a enough of this bullshit. if you didn't understand last time, understand this, we are done. now get out bc i bare to see your face anymore." i said looking away hiding my face from him. tears start to fall down my cheek non stop.

i fall onto the floor, i feel a hand on my back, i look up to see jack. "let me just say this please." he said. i ignored him. "ill never stop caring for you. ill never stop loving you." he said kissing my cheek. causing my hand to slap his face. "just stop lying to me jack ! i don't need your petty. just get out." i cry. he leaves i follow behind, slamming the door. causing a picture frame to fall.

i see glass shattered on the ground. i walk towards it, a picture of jack and i on our third date. i throw it away and just sat on the floor.

i stayed like this for a while until i got up and laid on my bed.

i look to my right, a picture of jorydn and me. i flip it around and turned around and fell asleep.