Jerk

chapter thirty one

i was driving home that night, my phone going off every second. i finally get home, once i get there i see my mom on the couch. she first smiles at then looks at my dress. she's gasps, and walks up to me. "Jenn! what happened!" she said looking at my ripped dress. "madison and jordyn happened, mom. they embarrassed me. they ruined the one day i was waiting for. I'm heart broken, I have no friends, i nothing to hold onto mom, jack says he loves me but i just don't know what to believe anymore. i did all of this, i caused this. i ruined my friendship with everyone. matthew barely talks to me, mom he means so much to me i just don't know what i did. lastly I'm just done with everything. i just want to turn off a switch, like turn off my feelings, i need a break." i cried.

"jenn, dont do that." my mom said. "jenn, listen to your mom. i don't want to see you this hurt." i hear jack say. i turn around to see jack standing at the door, with kian, johnson, cameron,jc and matt. i turned around and took off my shoes. once i did i ran upstairs to my room making sure to lock it. they start knocking on the door. they don't stop.

"you don't need to be hurt" i say to myself. "maybe it'll change the way i think" i say again. "but going back to this will only make it worse."

i look down at my hands. i can't start that again. "JENN OPEN THE DOOR!" i hear kian yell, it also sound like he was about to cry. his voice was cracking. i don't them to think id do something. i can't let that happen. i get up and opened the door.

kian runs and hugs me. i didn't do anything. "jenn what did you do?" he asked. "nothing." i said dryly. "can you guys leave. i need to get out of this dress." i said. "but i don't mind a crowd" i whispered and smirked. "what did you say jenn?" jack asked. "i said i don't mind a crowd" i smirk. "guys get out." kian and jack said. i laughed and walked into my bathroom.

kian leaves but i know he's pissed. jack stays in my room. once i get the dress off i put my robe on and walked into my closet. i grab my spandex and my sports bra. i walk out and left my room. "jenn, your not going downstairs with that when you know the guys are here!" he said. "do i care? no." i said walking downstairs.

maybe a change is for the best. i go into the kitchen to grab some water. i feel someone pick me up, i look at who it is and its jack. "jack let go of me!" i said holding onto my water. "no" he said. i look at my cup of water and ice. i see jack about to get to the stairs. i pour my water on him, making him drop me. "fuck that hurt. bad idea." i groan. i get up and looked at jack. he was pissed. he was about to say something until i cut him off. "jack we are not dating! we are done, you can't tell me what to wear and what not to wear. obviously i did this to piss you off i don't care anymore to point were i have no feelings for anything. i lost so much within a year that i can't deal with anything else! so please just leave me alone, just like everyone in this room did when i needed someone." i said going upstairs.

i looked at the time and it was 10:30. i went to my closet and changed again. i put some sweats on instead of spandex. as i was going to bed, i hear kian yelling. "JENN MOMS GOING IN LABOR" he yelled. i instantly got up and grabbed my phone, and ran outside my room. "kian take her to the car! ill get her things!" i said. kian nodded, i look down jack was also helping. he never left.

i grab the bag from the nursery that we prepared a while ago, i run down the stairs. i grab my keys and left. i lock the door and went to the car. i don't know what i was thinking but i forgot my sweater, as i got in the jack kian was driving, mom was in the front. jack was in the back, with me. he saw me shivering, right away he gives me his sweater.