Splintered Hearts

A little understanding.

"Look here it comes!" My mom pointed.

"Look daddy!" I squealed.

"I can see it pumpkin. Can you count how many carriages? Ready?!" He asked.

My eyes went to the train approaching when I heard my dad gasp. Looking at him quickly a loud crash filled my ears as I was thrown forward. The window broke covering me in glass as my mother screamed trying to turn in her seat to get at me.

"Mummy!"

"It's okay baby! It's okay!" She shouted. My daddy couldn't get his seatbelt to unclip.

"START THE CAR! HURRY UP! HURRY UP DAVID!" She screamed as my daddy turned the car key and pulled his belt.

"IT WON'T START! I CAN'T GET OUT!"

"Mummy!"

"It's okay Pumpki-" It was as if time has slowed down as my mums fingers fought with my belt. The train was coming, the bell was ringing and horn was blaring. Then my fathers eyes, his brown eyes locked with mine trying to send love but only showing fear.. Then the train hit.

My eyes shot apart grabbing the hands that where holding me in my sleep. My body was trying to get up but these hands were stopping me.

"It's okay! It's okay!" Zak spoke as I shook."It's me. It's only me.. Robyn look at me." He hushed as I was halfway off the bunk.

Gasping for air I looked at him as another tear fell. Trying to hide the tear I buried myself in his chest before he could comment. His arms had a delayed response as he waited for me to pull away. When I didn't, he hugged me back, soothing my back gently.

"It's okay. Just a nightmare. You're safe now."

I could still see my fathers eyes, I shook my head into his shoulder wanting them to go. I loved my father, I knew I did. I still do, but those eyes showed complete fear and I didn't want to remember him like that.

"I guess this has stirred up some stuff, coming to Utah again?" He asked in my ear. I have him a nod hoping he'd understand.

"Okay sweetie. You stay here as long as you need." He whispered kissing the side of my head and ear slightly.

As my mind settled from reeling, I found myself staying for comfort when I realised I was taking advantage and moved off him.

As I sat back he moved my hair back and gave me a little smile "Are you okay now?"

I nodded "Sorry.. I- they don't happen often..."

"It's okay." He smiled looking at me carefully. Zak looked up the RV before looking at me.

"Are you okay? I mean really?"

Propping my elbow on my knee I rubbing my face with my hand "Tomorrow is the anniversary of their deaths."

Realisation hit him as his shoulders dropped "And I've pulled you here.. Of all places."

"You didn't know. Did you? Well you might have with that file but I should be over it by now.." I frowned thinking about the past few years.

Zak placed his hand on my knee and shook his head "Grieving. It's different for everyone. What you went through and suffered after is a pretty traumatic thing.."

"I just miss them.." I mumbled.

"I know sweetie. If you need some time out whilst we are here.. Just let me know okay?"