The Principal 2

Chapter 9

******** i WANT to finish this boook but I have a long way toooo goooooooooo****

-may 27th
-Jessica-
I woke up to a hand being placed over my mouth, I started shrieking. Niall jumped up coming over to me. He sat next to me, putting my hand in his.

"Niall, he was here, he was trying to get me."

"Jessica, it was just a dream," he softly says.

"But he was right here," I cry out, "I felt him."

"He's not here, you're okay," he cooed.

My sobs start to soften as Niall combed my hair with his fingers.

"I was so scared, I was going to be taken, I'll be dead if it happens again," I sob.

"It was only a bad dream, you are safe," Niall comforts me.

"It felt so real, I could feel his hand on my mouth," I sob.

"Jessica, It's alright," Niall says.

I start to calm down my sobs softening.

"Jessica, I will never let anyone hurt you ever again," Niall promised.

"Promise," I say in a small voice.

He hooks his pinky with mine, "pinky promise," he says.

I smile at him and nod.

I wish those dreams would stop. They scare me so much, I never want that to happen to me again. I can't take anymore abuse or pain. I physically and emotionally can't do it again. It's so hard to keep going when your body's still trying, but your mind has given up. I'm trying to be strong for the people I love.

I'm so lucky to be surrounded by such supportive people, everyone in my life has been so great. I'm so lucky in some aspects. I just wish it was a little more normal. I would kill to have just a day of a normal life. Just all the craziness to disappear for awhile.

I know I'll never have a normal life, but I would like to have something close to it. I just want everything to end. I need him to be found and put in jail or killed. Him being dead would be better. There would be no chance of him coming back, he would be gone forever. I'd finally be safe and maybe could live a somewhat normal life. I wish I could go back to the old days. Just Susan, Luke, and I, everything was just so simple back then.

My parents always told me life wasn't fair, but why did I have find that out the hardest way possible. I never expected too much of life, but Jesus, give me a fucking break. The amount of pain I've felt in these past few months is more than some people feel in a lifetime, I'm only 19. A 19 year old shouldn't have to go through this shit. It's insane actually. Insanely insane. I can't help, but think I could've done something different to avoid this. If I didn't go down to the office that one day, Susan and I could've avoided this entire situation and I wouldn't be lying in a hospital bed right now regretting my entire life.

I would be happily attending Uni right now. I would be learning about something that fascinates me and working to graduate. And after that get a paying job and probably live happily with Niall, in a suburban home somewhere. I just have to stay positive, I'll eventually get out of the hospital and go back to college get my degree and live a somewhat happy life, I hope. It's so hard to stay positive, when so much has been thrown at you. I could probably leave the hospital, but they are scared I might get kidnapped again, they know I'm safe here. But I can't hide here forever, you don't get anywhere in life without taking risks, but I understand their reasons, they just want me to be safe, but I want to move on with my life. I plan to go back to college. I plan to graduate.