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Chapter 12

So, if you ever see the name "Jane" I really mean to say AMBER. I get them confused sometimes when I'm writing on my other book on the same day. Sorry!

NATE'S POV

Wow, she really could kiss. Maybe that's one trait or thing she didn't forget how to do. Is it an instinct? I'm like the only guy she's kissed this much. Our lips just move in sync. I can't believe she said the whole "Hey kiss me again" thing. Is she trying to mess with my emotions? I have a girlfriend. I have a girlfriend. I have a girlfriend. I have a girl-gosh she's a great kisser. Why am I even thinking about this? If she remembers anything, i'm a dead man. She'll remember how she pushed me out of her life. I gotta say, it hurt like nobody's business. I love the girl. Like a sister, of course. "We have to stop now, okay?" I asked, pulling back. "Okay." She whispered. "What's on your mind?" She asked. Oh great, she knows something's wrong. Quickly lie, or tell the truth? "Why should I ruin your day?" I asked her. "Oh, It's got something to do with Katrina, huh?" Heck yeah it does. It has to do with you too and It's crazy because I want to stay in your life for as long as possible. "Yeah," I answered instead of that long monologue. "Fine, don't tell me, but one day I'll just have to find out. It must of been pretty bad or something." She answered. "Yeah, it wasn't pretty. Forget all about it okay?" I asked. "Sure thing." She answered.

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AMBER'S POV

That kiss. What did that kiss mean to him? I'm dying to ask. He's got a girlfriend who apparently hates me and my 'game' whatever that is. Nate, he's a good kisser. I'm not gonna lie here. Probably has had lots of practice with his girlfriend though. It makes me sad, I would totally date the guy. Why weren't we dating before? Ugh. This is so frustrating. I feel so empty. It's just all a mystery to me. I want to know. I want to know everything. I'm sick and tired of feeling this way. The "memory kiss" didn't work, so what will? Nothing? Will I be stuck like this for the rest of my life? I can't. I want to remember my early high school years, and It stinks. The tears are in my eyes now, and I feel like they have this mind of their own. I don't care anymore. I just want answers. I want and need them to everything. Like who did the old me have some school girl crush on? That's a question. Wait, that's a great question. "Nate?" I sniffled. "What's wrong?" "Nothing, nothing." I answered, wiping the tears from my eyes. "I just have this freaky dry- eye problem." I continued. "Okayyy what do you want?" He asked. "Who did I have a crush on?" I asked him. "Well, pumpkin, you liked this guy named Dane. He's this total player that you've kissed before during this game of truth or dare at a party." I partied? So I was that type of person? Huh? That sounds like fun. "Let's go to a party." I declared. "What if nobody's having a party right now?" He asked. "Good point, fine. Whatever." I huffed. "Next time someone's having a party, let me know, okay?" I asked him.

I'm not sure why, but partying sounds like a brilliant idea. We should throw a party, that's it. My parents might kill me though. Like I can imagine the conversation now "Hey parents that I hardly know, can I throw a party for no apparent reason in a house that I can't work my way around yet?" Oh yeah, that would go really well. Sarcasm intended. "Nate," I began to ask, "What are your parents doing tonight?" I asked. "Nothing interesting." He replied. "Darn, I was thinking that since we can't go to a party, we should throw one." I replied. "Amber, hate to break it to you, but we aren't exactly what people consider popular. I have a few friends and you've got Lizzy and I. That's about it. Nobody would come to this so-called party of ours anyway." He told me.

"Well why aren't we popular?" I asked him. "We think society is stupid." He bluntly answered. Okay, I see why we might not be the most popular. We don't give into that bull that floats around high school probably. "Okay, good answer. I'm starting to figure out who I am slowly." I told him. "Okay, well when you remember something at least please tell me, alright?" He asked. "Okay." I replied. "Amber, it's getting kinda late, I should go." He told me. "Can you stay over?" I asked hopefully, looking down at my faded blue shoes until he answered. "After kissing you like that today, probably not." He replied. He couldn't see my disappointed face and I was glad knowing that fact. "Oh, well. Bye then." I quickly got out. I walked to my bed and laid down in it. How awkward is this? He hasn't left out the door yet. "I'm sorry girl, I didn't mean to make it awkward. I'm a guy, I don't even trust myself at the moment, okay?" He asked while walking over to where I'm sitting. "Fine, fine... go away. I don't feel like seeing you anyway." I replied to him. He got up and walked away finally out of my room while I slowly drifted off to sleep.

NATE'S POV

"Hey Kitty-kat, you up for talking tonight?" I asked her on the other end of the phone. "Sure, meet me at the park, okay?" She answered. "Okay, see you in a few." I told her. I know it's stupid, but she is my girlfriend. I've calmed down enough. I know it's all going to be okay. Since she's lost her memory, I'm still in her life and it's all going to be alright. I keep chanting that to myself. It's going to be okay. It's going to be alright. I climbed into my car and started to drive to the park.

The cool-night air hit me the second that I got out of the car. It was dark enough to see the stars, but you couldn't exactly see them since it's a larger city and all. "Hey Nate," I heard a voice call. "What's up baby-doll?" I asked her. "We have a little talk to get to?" She answered with a question. "Yeah, come on." I replied, grabbing her hand and dragging her to a little hill on the ground. "Okay," I started once we began to sit down. " I know last time we met, I was a little upset, I'll have you know that I've calmed down. A lot was happening and I kind of lost it. I'm sorry baby-doll. Please forgive me?" She scooted closer to me and put her hand on my thigh. Rubbing my thigh in circular motions, she started to lean in. I knew what she was up to, of course I've been forgiven at this point. I felt her lips brush against mine, teasing me. I didn't let her continue doing that before I completely took control of the kiss here. My hands started to get tangled in her long brown hair and hers were creeping up my back. I kissed her with so much passion. Man, I missed her a lot. I guess I'm a guy, sometimes we lose it. Our lips molded together perfectly. I could feel her smiling through the whole thing. It feels like we're the only two people on this planet. The streetlamps, the streets, and any people whatsoever have all disappeared. It's just my amazing girlfriend and I. Heaven probably felt like kissing her. I've forgotten about Amber and all of my problems.

This girl is like a drug, and I can't get enough of her. We pulled back for air and I looked at her. "You're forgiven." She answered. "Good, because that way I can do this again." I smirked and kissed her again. She was smiling the entire time and I'm glad to have her back. She's become my everything and no matter what, she'll always be there. I'll let go of Amber maybe one day if I have to. I almost lost her, and now I feel like it's a clean slate. I'll have to eventually mention something about Seaton, but that's for another time. Sometimes I wonder what I'm doing with my life these days but kissing Katrina, I know what I'm not doing. What category does this put me under? Who knows. She pulled away, sadly, for air. "I like you so much." I told her. "I like you too." She replied. "Can we just keep kissing?" I asked her. "That's fine with me." She replied, smirking. I leaned in and kissed her again. We continued to kiss for the longest time. "I have to get home," She finally whispered. "Well, two teens making out in a park might seem a bit creepy, huh?" I asked. She laughed, showing off her amazing smile. "Yeah, maybe. You wanna come over for a bit? My parents are with some friends and It gets kinda lonely." She replied. "Okay, only for a bit." I replied. "Meet me at my house, okay?" She asked. "Where else would I go?" I asked her. "Not sure really." She replied. I softly kissed her goodbye for now and got in my car.

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Waking up, I realize that yesterday was good. I'm confused though. I kissed two amazing girls yesterday. I think I'm starting to fall for Kat. She's gorgeous, amazing, sweet, funny, loud, and she's one heck of a kisser. Amber is a mess right now. She's not even stable really. She's just a teenage girl that I know so much about. She might change though. What if she remembers everything? What if she doesn't? I think that's what scares me the most. The fact that she could go the rest of her life not knowing who she was for 17 years. It's scary to think about. I don't want her to not be able to remember a thing. No, what I really want is for her to remember everything and we can all live happily ever after. I'll be dating Katrina and she'll find a nice, caring guy who she deserves. Yeah, I kissed her. So what? It didn't mean anything. I'm a guy. All I'm concerned with is who i'll be making out with next, you feel me? My phone started ringing and I Immediately picked it up. The caller ID had Amber's number on it. I'm surprised that her phone actually still works. It's super cracked. "Hello?" I answered. On the other line I could only hear one thing. Crying. Not just anyone crying, Amber crying.

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So, If you ever see the name "Jane" In my stories, I probably mean to say AMBER. Jane is Amber's mom. Also, check out this song that I like. Its called Born to Die by Lana Del Rey.